New Record! + What's new? (Patreon)

August became my single most successful month on Patreon since I joined back in 2016, and those of you who follow me on Twitter will know that it feels if I didn't do any work at all. Because yes I posted a lot more than my typical average, but in the final days of the month as I was basically trying to decompress (hence me watching horror movies all of sudden) I kept having this feeling that I was being lazy... only to remember that I'd just posted something a day prior. 

Like with that last Brighambell picture, I don't remember drawing it. I mean I remember, but much like driving your car, my brain kind of dumped the details of the journey. Several of you have attributed this to me having fun, but others may still point out my paranoia and perfectionism clouding my outlook on things. -Its probably a mixture of both, depending on whichever personality I'm fronting at the moment.

The past is always poisoned for me. I have no good memories of the earlier years of this Patron, just anxiety and the judgmental silence of an audience that didn't seem to like me. And so if this is deja vu and I've displayed this same "wow! you like me!" reaction, it may be because I'm stuck in a dissociative loop. I never feel entitled to your support. On the contrary I'm always surprised when people even glance in my direction. -- I can't take your support for granted, because I'm blown away that 1 of you enjoy my work.

Sorry for melting onto the floor like this ^///^; 

Now what to do this month? Faulkner, Maple, and Henry may be coming down the pipeline. If you don't remember Henry they were a psychotic laughing hyena candy clown I came up with last year when I was having a personal episode. 

Their character sparked some controversy because apparently you can never depict any trans, intersex, or non-binary character as being criminal or crazy. Even if you're making a direct reference to the Insane Clown Posse and Juggalos... who are both trans positive and furry friendly.

Of course when I made them people were still denying my own sexual identity because Zevtil bad, Zevti bad. Regardless, the Halloween season passed, my attention got pulled elsewhere, and Henry never got the development that he deserved. Here's hoping I can rectify that.