[2021/10/23] Some Reflections 一些思考 (Patreon)

[2021/10/23] Some Reflections

"Humans are creatures that cannot move forward without consumption."

"The so-called maintenance of the status quo"

"is the degradation of the race as a race"

Well, these are some lines from "Fate Extra Last Encore" ......

In the past I only slightly agreed with it ......

But now I'm starting to accept it

Probably because of the blockade in the past few weeks

During that time it was relatively ...... inconvenient to buy and order takeaway

So I also cook my own food, and then not much online shopping things

I live a relatively frugal and introverted life.

And after unblocked look back and find that it seems to be a different kind of ......

It looks like a good way of life

It looks very energy efficient ...... and environmentally friendly, it seems

So I thought, try this for one more week ......

The result, no

Last week, although I was happy to draw something at the beginning because of the excitement of the blockade being lifted ......

But it seems that as long as I keep this energy-saving lifestyle, it's hard for me to create something new ......

Should I say that I can't find the passion ...... or that I have no motivation ......

My own cooking is not worse in taste than what can be bought outside the ordinary

Or a little above average ......

But perhaps because the choice of ingredients will be a little less, lacking a certain randomness

or I'm too lazy to do some more complicated process.

The result is a bit lacking in sophistication

Or maybe cooking itself consumes a certain amount of energy and time ......

...... In short, less take-out and less grocery shopping

I'm relying more on my own cooking and similar low consumption life ......

The result is difficult to paint!

I thought the difficulty in painting was due to the mental stress of the blockade.

But to be more precise, it was because of the blockade that I couldn't spend as much as I wanted ......

Well, I actually typed these words while eating take-out!

Although rough, the taste is worse, the amount is also less than the self-made

But somehow eating will be some motivation to come out of it!

I often buy from different stores.

So it's not like the takeaway is filled with stimulants or something ......

The source of this motivation ......

It's the excitement of eating a relatively rare ingredient ......

Or is it the feeling of "being in a convenient modern society"?

or a relaxed and happy spirit due to the feeling of "being in a convenient modern society" ......

Or maybe this motivation is my subconscious mind canceling the need to "cook" for the next few hours

and release the energy that was reserved for it ......

It's probably like a pool of water ......

Only if you put in an extra amount and let it "spill over" a bit.

Then the overflow can be used for creation ......

If I just "maintain" it, I may not be able to make a few paintings a month ......

The feeling

Well, all in all, almost another week of low power operation!

This week's drawing is only the one from the very beginning!

https://imgbox.com/tuD7kPiH

https://imgbox.com/3rv1Wh9r

https://www.imagevenue.com/upload/complete?session=42f42cb54424d2fccf34d71b43974fc2

But I'm sure it will come back gradually!

And I've gained a lot of experience and thought, so ......

Maybe it will be helpful for the continuity of creation in the future ......

Then I will also send out the part2 mod as soon as possible ...... ............

(Organizing and releasing mods is also a complicated and tedious process, I can't draw ......

   (also not quite able to do this)

Also, the weather has gotten colder all of a sudden ......

It took a lot of time to move out the heating equipment and adjust some small parts of the room

Take care of yourselves and keep warm!

*Also, before I sometimes have some strange expressions in English ......

 Well, "I say one thing and then I say it again in the second half of the sentence" ......

 That's actually because of some weird errors in the translation engine

 I'm not very confident with my English expressions and the use of specific words.

 So I often use a translation engine to help me express myself

 The translation engine at hand seems to mistake a comma for a comma sometimes ......

 Redescribing the sentence, something like this

 I used to be troubled for a long time how this happened

 Now I finally understand!

 Well, I guess I won't have this kind of problem anymore

 Although probably not too many before, eh ......

“人类是不消费就没法前进的生物”

“所谓的维持现状”

“就是作为种族的退化”

嗯，这是《Fate Extra Last Encore》里的一些台词……

在过去我只是稍微的认同它……

不过现在已经开始可以接受它了

大概源于过去几周的封锁吧

在那段时间里买东西叫外卖都相对的……不方便

所以我也自己做饭，然后不怎么网购东西

过着相对节约内敛的生活。

而解封了之后回头看去，发现那好像是另外一种……

看上去还不错的生活方式

看上去很节能……也很环保，似乎

于是我想着，再多尝试这样一周试试……

结果，不行

上一周虽然开头的时候因为封锁解除的兴奋感而高兴的画了些东西……

但似乎只要保持着这种节能的生活方式，我就很难进行新的创作……

该说是找不到激情呢……或者说没有动力呢……

我自己做的菜在味道上并不差于外面普通能买到的东西

或者说高于平均值一些……

但是也许是因为材料的选择上会稍少一点，缺乏一定的随机性

或者是我懒得做一些比较复杂的工序，

导致成果在精巧性上有些欠缺

再或者是做饭本身就会消耗一定量的精力与时间……

……总之，减少外卖和超市购物

更多靠我自己做饭以及类似的低消耗生活……

带来的结果就是难以绘画！

本来以为之前的难以绘画是封锁带来的精神压力导致的

但更准确来说是因为封锁而无法尽情消费……么

嗯，其实上面的这些文字，也是边吃着外卖边提起劲来打的！

虽然粗糙，味道差一些，量也比自己做的少

不过不知为何的吃着就会有些动力涌出呢

我经常换着店家购买，

所以应该也不是外卖里面加了兴奋剂什么的……

那这份动力的源头……

是吃到了相对少见的食材，显得兴奋的身体呢……

还是由于有了“身处便利的现代社会”的感觉，

而感到放松和愉快的精神呢……

又或者这份动力，是我的潜意识，取消了自己接下来几个小时中“做饭”这个需求

然后将本来预留于它的精力释放出来的体现……呢

大概就像是一个池子里的水……

只有投入了额外的量，让它“溢出来”一些，

那溢出来的部分才能用来创作吧……

只是“维持”的话，我可能一个月也画不了几张画……

的感觉

嗯，综上所述，又差不多低功率运行了一周！

这周画的只有最开始时那一张！

https://imgbox.com/tuD7kPiH

https://imgbox.com/3rv1Wh9r

https://www.imagevenue.com/upload/complete?session=42f42cb54424d2fccf34d71b43974fc2

不过接下去状态会逐渐恢复的吧！

并且也获得了难得的经验与思考，嗯……

也许会对以后的创作持续性上有帮助……

然后我也会尽快把part2的mod整理好发出去……嗯…………

（整理和发布mod也是复杂繁琐的一个过程，画不了画……

   也就不太能做这个）

以及，天气一下子变冷了呢……

搬出取暖设备以及调整房间的一些小地方也花了不少时间

各位也要保重身体，注意保暖！