Hey everyone. (Patreon)

TLDR: I’m having a break until late November/ December. Another free month for existing patrons in November.

Now for the wall primarily consisting of text:

I‘ve been reflecting on how exactly to word this. As many of you know I’ve been battling depression, and in this fight ‘self-improvement’ has been the key goal. Going to the gym, participating in creative writing courses, having a more structured routine and generally being outside more have been the modes in which I’ve tried to attain this.

But… my mood has improved very little, due to this I am finding borderline impossible to concentrate on anything for more than two minutes at a time, which is a frustrating me to no end. The fact that (according to my therapist) depression also makes your brain like a sieve, lowering your capacity to retain information, also hasn’t helped.

It‘s strange as I’m full of ideas (I’ve a stack of sheets on my desk that can attest to this, so my creativity hasn’t died) but motivation and concentration is just… absent. There’s a ton of stuff I want to do in Koikatsu, but my jank brain just won’t let me get to it right now.

So the planned break…

My therapist has pointed out that guilt is an immediate major contributor of my mood dips, and thus needs to be tackled.

The cycle goes something like this:

I tell you patrons that I’m going to get a piece of work done, so then I try to push myself to make the work, I get frustrated as I can’t, then I feel guilt from non-delivery with the added bonus of disappointing you all as I set the expectation for content in your minds. Like with ‘Journey of an Alraune‘ this month.

This cycle needs to be broken.

Hence why I’m taking the break. I can only apologise for this, it’s a personal matter and I need to conquer these inner beasts before I continue on.

I’ll be letting everyone know towards the end of November what shall be happening.

As a footnote to this, I AM NOT charging any patron until I’m back on my feet. I’ve looked at my finances and I should be able to survive until December, sans any savings, but survival is the objective right now, not hoarding money. It’s also the fact that it’d be unconscionable of me to charge when nothing is being produced. That isn’t how I operate.

In the meantime there are other artists that could tickle your fetish fancies until I’m back,

I’ll give a shout-out to some of them:

- Ron512: Does similar content to me with regards to ‘Requited Change’. As time has gone on I feel like both their storytelling and writing has improved. They often get another writer to help in their stories. I’ve spoken to them in passing and they seem like a really chill person.

- Moonlly: The person who truly got me into comic creation, very fetishy, great content. Still the queen of Koikatsu comics. Haven’t had too much interaction with her unfortunately, but their content is great.

- SigmaGal: Sigma has always impressed the heck outta me with her style and satirical writing. She has the highest quality comics I’ve seen and her writing is improving with help from her community. She has started allowing supporters on Discord to give her ideas and to help with her writing /structuring of stories (an idea I’ll be pinching in the future) while she livestreams. She‘s also really chill, with a great sense of humour.

- ARubberDucky: More punchy, fast paced, fetish-based content. Their popular series at the moment involves futanari. A futa is feminising the protagonist if that tickles you.

I just want to apologise yet again to anyone who has been trying to reach out to me via Discord, email etc. as I haven’t been checking them and I won’t be for the next week or so as I want to keep off the internet for a while. Sorry if I’ve caused any worry.

One final word to my patrons: any goodwill that I’ve burned I plan on earning back in the future. I’m repeating myself in saying this but don’t feel guilty for leaving me if you want to, it’ll just make me more eager to get you back in the future with some amazing content.

Well, I think that’s all I wanted to say. I appreciate you all, wish me luck on my ‘mind reclamation adventure’.