Kings Journal: 2019 (Patreon)

My emotional(?!) review  for 2019

Let's have a look on several things I experienced in 2019.
This journal is structured into small parts that focus on different events of 2019.
Warning: I will use strong language in this journal.

Let's begin

The big loss
Some months after the Purge on Tumblr people realized, that most artists did not vanish and most moved to Twitter so they deleted their pledges and I began to shrink.
I lost over 40 patrons just in summer and since I am not one of those huge artists with thousands of supporters I was worried. At first it seemed like I was the only one who lost so many supporters, but now at the end of 2019 I visited several artist's Patreon pages and many also lost supporters.
I would love to know the reason, but I guess it is a consequence of the Purge.
As soon as an artist is not in danger to vanish completely people just stop their support.
That's a bad attitude.

The art trade trap

In summer a person messaged me on Furaffinity. That person asked for permission to draw my original characters. I considered this as a compliment and I agreed. If people like my OCs I am happy. Two weeks later I received a message from the same person and the content was very confusing.
The person told me, that he drew my OCs and added a link and then the person said that this is an art trade and I must draw what he/she wants.
We never spoke about an art trade and I felt tricked. I was pissed, but I did not want trouble so I drew an artwork.

Do you remember that Artpack, where I left a note inside?!
„The artist does not want his art trade pic to be shown“
That was the result of this mess and he/she really forbid me to show his/her artwork.

Later I wondered if this has all been a language and communication problem. Maybe that person lacked vocabulary to tell me, what he/she really wanted and that caused this missunderstanding, but I also think that I created this possibilty to calm myself.

Soon after this unvoluntary art trade I got several messages from other strangers who suddenly wanted art trades with me and I refused them all.
I am convinced, that this „Can I draw your OC“ is a trick to gather free artworks.
Not to mention, that these strangers never liked a single of my artworks, They aren't even my followers/watchers.

Demanding commissioners

I do commissions,but unlike other artists who really advertize this service I do it more or less secretly. First I want to stress, that I have made very good experiences with some commissioners. Aside these kind commissioners, there are also some who are very demanding and talk to me if I would be a dog waiting for commandos. There isn't a single „please“ or „thanks“ in any sentence, it is just a collection of what I have to do.
I am neither a machine nor a slave and I expect to be treated with respect.
In the future I will remind rude commissioners for proper manners or otherwise they can forget about commissioning me.

The „I will wait for the uncensored artwork“ case – Ungrateful Twitter

Yes, that is a quote from Twitter and I was not amused when I read that comment.
I already mentioned my loss of patrons earlier and that comment showed me another reason, than the Purge or people who stop supporting me for a summer vacation.
I shared old, uncensored artworks and that was probably too generous.
Instead of supporting me, some people just sit and wait.
That's why I reduced free artworks for public by around 70%.
Sometimes I miss Tumblr, because it did not feel as ungrateful as Twitter.

Compassion

Each time someone tells me, that he or she can not afford Patreon I have no clue what I should say. I can never tell if it is the truth or a trick.
But the last time I got a „I can't afford...“ message I send a link that led to my gallery on baraaddiction. There are some old rewards, cropped in size, but uncensored.
I hope that these few uncensored artworks reach those who truly have no money.

A story about manipulation

Do you know, that people try to manipulate me?
Their strategy is simple. Oh Greeneyedwolfking if you would draw character x you would be so popular and many people would become your patrons.
What a cheasy attempt of manipulation. This year someone wanted me to draw All Might a guy from an anime.
And you know what?! I already drew that guy, because of a Commission Chance poll and no one cared. I threw that information in that manipulation-person's face and it felt amazing.

I hate hypes

In November I thought about drawing a Pokemon artwork, but Twitter was flooded with fanarts of Sword and Shield. There was nothing else than Pokemon and that was the moment, when I lost all interest for another artwork.
That hype ruined my excitement. It is so boring, when everyone draws the same stuff.

The end?!

That was my review of 2019 .
It feels like cleaning my mind for a new year.
I am grateful for everyone who supports me.
I enjoy reading your comments. I like your messages and I am always excited what characters will be suggested for a poll and who will win?!

2019 was a good year. I am a bit sad, that I could not realize all my plans but there will be a new year and 2020 will be great. Don't miss the preview for 2020, where I will talk about art projects. The preview will release in early January.

Thanks for reading.