Last week of July update! (Patreon)

Heya all, I'm just sorta checking in as the last week of my vacation is starting just to ramble a bit about how Things Are Doing™!

Vacation has been restful, and things are on track for resuming in August. Didn't get a lot done (but that's sort of the point! so it's a good thing), but did manage to finish like, one and some change commissions. Still picking away at those, and will continue to do so. I really do want to finish what i owe still, especially since there will most likely be a time i'd need to open emergency commissions to take care of surprise expenses, which are more likely than ever. And I can't exactly feel like that's a thing I can do with outstanding orders already behind me. So continue working on them i will. However, next time, i'll have to stick to simpler commissions, i think.

Despite taking the month off, the month has been rough cuz at this point, it's hard not to associate summer with my mom's illness and passing last year. The anniversary of her passing is coming up; It'd be a year already on the 7th of August, and it's been on my mind basically at any point i let it wander. It's difficult to enjoy the summer still and i'm unsure i ever will in an official capacity. (and unfortunately a LOT of friends' birthdays want to happen during this time to, lol. So it's a struggle xD)

Luckily, keeping busy has helped as always. Video games like Fire Emblem (letting me enjoy My Boy™) have been nice. I've had time to grieve a bit at least, but i'm still incredibly angry, looking back at how it all went down. Objectively, it could've been way worse; I recognized that then, and recognize that now. But it's still difficult not to find my self occasionally seething that if just one more thing went right, it could've been a bit better for all parties involved, y'know? The two voices i've crafted in my head are constantly fighting, shouting "The world should like, Totally Burn™😈 " and "NO Verzi this isn't your heart!!". Who'll win out? no one can say. It's difficult when your heroes and loved ones are continually let down by society, and every -ism you can think of. So i think a little burning would help. ;P

All that said, i'm doing "fine." The reorganizing of my household definitely means i have less time and energy to actually draw due to increased responsibilities and the fact i have no transportation of my own anymore, plus more expenses to pay. So it's a bit rough in that regard. Either way, we're hanging in there, That's all anyone can hope for, i suppose! I often look back to my 2016-2019 productivity, when  was streaming twice weekly, belting out like 12 pics weekly with 10 patreon figures AND commissions. Those were days, lmao. I miss those, but i guess i can just only accept that's a bar that would be unreasonable to even attempt to meet given current circumstances.

But yeah, things will be Resuming in August. Again, thanks for the support and whatnot!