fool's errand (Patreon)

A cute guy messaged me on instagram 
I had never interacted with him before
The url equivalent of being approached at a bar 
He’s an artist 
Makes music 
Seems cool and fun
I messaged back
Because that’s what I’m supposed to do now
Be "open to the possibilities" 
Within a few back and forths
He said he wanted to get to know me
If I have the space for that 
I was glad he used that language 
It allowed me to be truthful 
About the fact that I really don't have the space 
I only gave him a two sentence response 
It still felt too honest 
But what I didn’t say 
Was that someone wanting to get to know me 
Feels invasive 
Feels impractical 
Feels empty 
Feels like a fool’s errand
Because it feels like
No one will ever know me
Like you do