I need to take a break but I can't. (Patreon)

Yeah, I think I need to take a break from commissions and everything but I feel I can't do that, with everything that happened the last few years on top of having to work almost 10 hours a day, taking care of my family, especially after Dad's passing, and keeping up on my bills and payments the only thing I can do is by taking these commissions to keep everything afloat. which doesn't give me a lot of personal time for myself. 

I had to cancel a commission today that I was putting off until I had to work on it and I wasn't able to finish it, I did not want to keep working on it and I had to tell the client I couldn't work on it and had to cancel it and refund them the money and they didn't take it lightly I won't say who it was but it was one that I have been taking commissions with for a long time now and I'm afraid I may have lost a long time client because of it.  I didn't mean to put it off and usually when I do and have to work on it by the end I get it done without any issue but I just couldn't force myself on this one. I hope they'll be able to forgive me for doing that to them. 

Right now, I don't know what to do it seems every time I get a batch of commissions done I need to take in more just to make sure I have enough money to pay for gas and/or food and it just getting harder and harder for me to find the time to even work on these commissions. I think I need to go back to doing YCH/adopt auctions and Sketchmission streams for a bit when I was doing that during the pandemic times. 

Either way, I'll finish this recent batch of commissions then I'll decide what to do after that.