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"What could they have expected? How could I resist? My unit and I all witnessed the last several dozen experiments on human test subjects... How can you blame me for wanting in?

I was one of the guards responsible for the human test subjects. Most of the "experiments" carried out on them were the same: a Xenomorph impregnates a male or female captive, they experience the creature gestate inside their bodies, displaying a range of reactions and emotions, and finally give birth. What happens after is highly varied. Sometimes the subject is ignored by their offspring, and allowed back into their holding cell to recover from the ordeal. Most often, though, the subject would be devoured whole by either the Xeno that impregnated them, or the very creature they birthed.

We were all told to keep our composure, but it took every bit of strength in me to keep myself from peeking, from leering out the corner of my eye.

What if it was me in that chamber?
What if that ovipositor was straining itself up through my intestines?
How would it feel having such a thing squirm and writhe around in my abdomen?
What does it feel like having all those eggs hatch in your stomach?
How much fun would it be to suffocate from my throat being violated like that?

The longer I witnessed these experiments, the more desperately I needed to know the answer to these questions. My resolve snapped. No amount of training could have prepared me for THIS kind of temptation.

Yes, I stole several of the new specimens from the sealed section of the lab. I have taken them and myself somewhere deep into the facility's bowels, a private corner of a long-neglected utility tunnel. I intend to coax each one into hatching, and I will offer my body up to their seed. You will not find me in time to stop this.

If I should be alive when I am eventually found, please surrender my body for further experimentation. I will never function as a soldier, or even as a human being again. My mind and body are primed only to serve as prey now.

Should little or no trace of my body, or the stolen specimens ever be found again, may this provide further insight into these magnificent creatures.

By the time you read this, a Xeno is likely burying its ovum in my digestive tract at this very moment. Perhaps something is squirming inside me right now, or am I already being devoured alive?

... I hope I last long enough so that they all get their turn on me ❤ ...

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I've had the general idea for this drawing down since around 2016 or 2017, going through at least three other iterations I never quite liked. I figured this was slightly too complex for a casual full-color drawing, so I decided to practice a quicker, almost sketchier style on it instead :D

This took about six hours to finish up. Longer than I wanted, but I'm quite pleased with the completed thing!

For this monochrome presentation I feel the lines are still slightly too neat. A rougher, less rigid approach would likely add a better impression of texture, without the need for harder fills of grey. I will keep this in mind for the next practice pic :9

Hope you like it, and let me know whatcha think! ✿