feeling choked (Patreon)

this week has been hard. this month has been hard. this whole year has, obviously, been very hard! i'm very much struggling. with many things.. as everyone is, right now.

this is kind of a vent piece. i havent been able to draw all week, not due to lack of time but just.. absolutely drained of all energy, inspiration and motivation. the despair i feel when i don't create doesn't only stem from guilt for not updating here, but just general fear of losing one of the only things that i actually want to do! but everyone needs breaks, and maybe this week was a gravely needed pause for me? cause i do feel calmer now that i finally picked up the pen and drew this, kinda proving my brain that i can still draw lmfao. i need to teach myself that it's normal to have breaks, even from things you love, especially if you do them as a job. it's something i fight with a lot. anyway!

i want to take the time to thank everyone who has stayed around despite everything going on in the world, and in everyone's lives. your support means the world to me. i will keep doing my best! thank you from the bottom of my heart! ❤