comments/critique? (Patreon)

hey as most of you know, i have mental illnesses that i struggle with (10+ years of depression, borderline personality disorder, extreme social anxiety and post-traumatic stress disorder! nice little fucking awful list :/), i'm starting with that, because i've been trying to post to patreon and treat my patreon presence.. as if i'm not mentally ill. my goal has always been 30+ posts a month (so more than once per day on average) and especially during times (like recently) when i'm in a bad place, exhausted, working on commissions... i feel like i'm not doing enough because i'm not posting daily. and while my experience with patreon has been mostly positive and i feel it gives my life some meaning, i stress about the quality/quantity of posting, i stress i'm not doing enough & that i'm wasting everyone's time and money constantly (which i'm trying to cope with and learn to like.. fight through, but it's hard)

so, to ease my stress.. or get some concrete thoughts, i'd like to hear you guys' opinions/thoughts on my patreon? has it been a nice experience, do you feel like you get your moneys worth? i just.. wanna know how i'm doing, basically. so i can either stop stressing! or possibly make some changes according to you guys' thoughts, so i can stop stressing.

if you don't feel comfortable with replying on the comments, you can also use the patreon messaging system or curiouscat: https://curiouscat.me/sukka44 for an anonymous message!

i'd appreciate any kind of comments, honestly. i want some input to quiet down my nightmare brain.