❤️ Please Only Message Me About Concepts & Audios ❤️ (Respectfully I Don't Have Anything Else to Give) (Patreon)

Dm Message:

Hi Tea it's been awhile if you remember me. I'm the one who commissioned the one you called foxy and the one who left and told you that I was going to delete my patreon account. I'm doing ok if you're wondering or even care. Remember that when I left I was trying to find a girlfriend? Well it's not going great. Finding the right woman now is hard thanks to modern feminism. One woman that I was talking to only cared on how much I make and what I owned in life. Didn't even cared about on who I am or what I'm like. Hell one girl just wanted to have sex with me but I shot that down fast.

Talking to girls is hard for me since I have high functioning autism and an introvert. It's honestly disgusting and pathetic how modern women have become now. Whatever happened to traditional women who are feminine, kind, polite, compassionate, accommodating, nurturing and cooperative? There almost impossible to find. And dating apps are such a scam now it's pathetic. Now I'm just waiting for this modern feminism to be over it's cycle and try again. I honestly do miss your audios though now. And yes I know they're fiction but they do bring a smile to my face. Just wish there were more women like them in the real world. Like the foxy audio you did. A woman who cares for who you are and what you do for her. But that's not gonna happen. It's a great fantasy but it's not reality. And it'll never fix the reality I am in.

But there's something I have to share with you though. I nearly had a suicide attempt. Trauma from my past came back to my head thanks to my parents. I won't go into detail but I lost trust in my parents. I lost my best friend due to her sister telling everyone that I raped her even though I didn't. I lost trust in my friend and his family. And the tipping point is when you cancelled my commission after you made me wait for four months. I lost complete trust in you and I even considered you a good friend. Did you know what it felt like when you did that? It felt like you ripped my heart out and crushed it front of my face. I was going to take a loaded gun, aim at my head, and pull the trigger to escape all of this pain. But thankfully I decided to get help. My parents are sorry for what they did and swear they will never do it again. Thanks to all of this trauma I have trust issues now.

I do forgive you but I won't ever trust you again.  I know after reading this letter you're gonna say you're sorry but I don't believe you anymore. Your sorry means nothing to me now. Even if you say sorry to me a thousand times a day, every single day of your life until to die it will never be enough to erase the pain. The only apology I'll accept from you is that you do the commission that I asked for back then, do it for free, and say the name that I asked for through out the entire audio and not just in the beginning part as you did in the foxy audio.  But for now I'll listen to your audio's again cause it does help with my trauma and depression.

My Response:

Hello -

I’m sorry for what you’ve gone through. We all go through tough times. When I reimbursed your commission, I was going by through a tough time too.  There’s no more to say. I’m sorry you’re in pain, but that doesn’t give you the right to speak to people however you like.   I hope you can talk to friends and family and start to feel better.

Please don’t message me again. Listen to the audios, don’t listen to the audios, delete your subscription, think whatever you like, just live your life because what you’re doing here, saying all this stuff to me, blaming everyone around you is a waste of your time. Your finite time. I recognise you’ve been through horrible things - we all have. I wanted to kill myself last year too. I get it. I really do. But this, talking to people like this, feeling disappointed and angry towards strangers and people you don’t know, won’t help you.

I wish you the best, but I won’t take responsibility for issues that are clearly a lot bigger than a content creator reimbursing a commission in full because of mental issues. This isn’t about me. You don’t know me. It’s about you. So focus on yourself and live a life you’re actually gonna enjoy.

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There's currently no way for me to turn off DM's on Patreon, but if it ever becomes a feature, I believe I will opt for it. 

Thank you to everyone who has ever sent me kind words, concepts and amazing ideas. This is not a reflection on you, I just don't want to engage with this kind of behaviour.