No More Self-Sabotage ❤️🔥 (Patreon)
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It’s Sunday.
So, you might be feeling that sinking pit in your stomach, sometimes known as quiet dread. Me too. Every Sunday. Every single one. I scream internally. “Fuck. I’m gonna screw it up again. I’m so shit at life. Fuck me! Fucking fucking fuck!”
If you’re feeling what I’m feeling, you’re not alone. I don‘t think I’ll ever accurately articulate how fucking incapable I feel on a daily basis. Underneath the positivity I try to cultivate and put out into the world, there is a self-sabotaging self-pitying little troll who kinda just wants me to fail.
I don’t know if they’ll always be there, but I’m just gonna have to learn to keep going despite the barrage of ”you suck”.
And yes, sometimes I do suck, we all do. We all fail, we can all act like babies, we can all get it wrong.
But that doesn’t mean we should become nihilistic little hate pools who don’t try.
So, I’m just letting you know that I’m gonna try to be an active contender in my life. I’m gonna try and see it as “I’m trying in spite of how I feel“, instead of “I just feel shit and incapable, therefore I am shit and incapable”. Nope, that’s just how you feel. Feelings don’t always equate to facts.
I encourage you, whoever you are, to be active in your life. If you feel out of control, take it back, slowly, one piece at a time. If you don’t like yourself, examine that, finds areas you can change, even improve.
Do not sit in the misery. Do things.
I’m sorry life is scary. I don’t know you, I’m probably never gonna know your name or you mine, but I want you to try and I want you to show up for yourself ❤️