💙 Personal Responsibility 💙 (Patreon)
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The person who sent me the very distressing exit survey has DM’d me with an apology. Whilst I thanked them for their apology, I believe blocking them from my Patreon is the right next step.
I cannot take responsibility for what people consume online, but I will put barriers in place for people who clearly struggle keeping themselves and others safe.
Their message:
“I am so sorry that I sent this to you though everything I did say was true it was mean to say it didn't solve a single problem and only gave me a moment of relief and then constant anxiety I should have kept this to myself the sad reality is I get screwed everywhere I go for help the last time I saw that number was when another ASMR creator who made comfort for PTSD audios linked it from her Twitter the bad part was that her Twitter and website had porn about her forcing herself on young men though there was other stuff that was what triggered my panic attack the first time I knew people did that but I didn't think anybody would be cruel enough to link it to YouTube I think you see how im self-destructive how I don't seem to learn apparently I always make stupid choices that just make things worse I've called the number even before anyone linked it to me at least five times and I always get disconnected and now because of my own stupidity I've just brought back all of the memories I worked so hard to forget and now these stupid scars that were finally healing that I was happy were healing are back and I know it's my fault I hate you and I'm so sorry for that I know I'm just another asshole on the internet and I'm sorry I'm honestly jealous of everyone of your patreons because you seem to help all of them based on their comments again I got screwed over being the only one to be hurt I was doing good I'd forgotten about you I was living my life as close to normal as I could but then my mom got sick and probably won't make it if I was gone she wouldn't be here to miss me but before that happened I thought I'd found faith but the second you mentioned it everyone makes sure you know how stupid you are and now I can't believe in anything I'm so sorry for even bringing this up to you I have no love for you but I do believe you're a good person or at least you're trying to be which is all anyone can ask for if I've ruined your day I'm sorry I am so sorry for sending you that message if I could take it back I would do it in a heartbeat.”
My response:
“Thank you for your apology. I hope you can get the help you need. I’m going to be blocking you from my Patreon, for both your sake and my own. I hope it will enable you to have a fresh start and keep away from things that aren’t helping you. All the best.”
This will be my approach going forward.