❤️ 😞 Things I Hate About My Personality 😞 ❤️ (Patreon)

I have this horrible habit of taking on too much work, overloading myself and then wanting to close down and never record again. 

I don't know if I'm just easily overwhelmed, not very good at time management, or even just not that great at my job - but for whatever reason, I have this shitty tendency to take on commissions and then be absolutely incapable of doing them justice. 

I've just today refunded two commissions that I've been wrestling with for weeks. I sent the commissioners my deepest apologies, returned their money and cringed throughout the entire process. Maybe this isn't something I should share, but I think being transparent about this is probably better than making up some excuse. 

I don't have an excuse. I just can't ask people to give me money when I have no confidence in the product I've made. If I can't see merit in what I've created, then I can't expect to take people's money for it. 

I guess I'm sharing this today to once again say that I'm really sorry I have this tendency. I wish I didn't. I wish I was better, more confident, less neurotic, but I just can't take people's money when I know I've done a shitty job. As unprofessional as backtracking is, I think it'd be even worse to take money for something I know isn't good enough. 

Again, my sincerest apologies. It is absolutely not personal to anyone but me. Sometimes, I just feel so incapable and I'm so sorry that that sometimes affects Teacup stuff. 

I've kept on the last two commissions that I feel I've done good work on and I will get those out to the commissioners as soon as possible. 

All the best, 

The woman who voices Tea