200 Episode Milestone! (Patreon)

Hi everyone!

As you probably know... we finally reached 200 episodes of Boyfriends today! But in case you don't, episode 200 is now out on Webtoon.

Thank you so much for supporting me throughout this journey. It's so much more than I have ever asked for, considering this started as a side project for me to have fun with while working on my main job at the time.

I honestly don't know what the future holds for this series. The story itself isn't actually finished, but the pain that this series has caused me has made me consider

It's a tough thing to be vulnerable and share your work online. I attached too much of myself to this series--the comic being an exploration of my own sexuality, gender, relationships, and desires--that it became so hard for me to just let things go.

When they say it's a bad representation, it makes me wonder whether I've been embarrassing my fellow queer people with my existence. When people say I'm only labeling Goth as an asexual for the sake of brownie points, it made me doubt my own asexuality and whether it's an appropriate label for me to use. When they say this comic is the reason queer people in real life face violence and injustices... well, I could only wonder whether making the comic is a mistake after all.

But I have been reading some of the comments that people leave on this 200th episode. I have been meeting people at conventions, and what they told me really touched me. About how it's something that they can relate to, something they look forward to, and how it helped them during the tougher times of their life. People were very understanding of my plight and understanding if this would be my last episode after all... it's just a lot of love that I didn't deserve in the first place, and I really want to pay it back. It gives me a certain satisfaction that still makes me cling to the series for even just a bit, and that's why I'm still undecided on whether I would like to continue the story or drop it completely.

Thank you so so much for being here. The support that I received from everyone allowed me to go on, even just a bit longer. I'm sorry that I haven't done enough to give back, that I have made something that you're probably not proud to be a fan of, and now possibly not continuing the comic. But for now, I ask you to give me the luxury of stepping back and reevaluating whether all of the good is worth all of the pain.

JUST TO BE CLEAR, the Patreon will still be active, and I'll still be working on other Boyfriends-related projects—just not the comic itself. They're most likely going to be "unofficial" content, where I have more control over it.

Anyway, thank you so much for reading, I've just had a lot of thoughts about it today, sorry for burdening you with all of my rambles.

I hope you guys have a good day!