I am....Sorry. (Patreon)

Hello. I'm drained. These last eps are so much longer than any videos I used to post on my channel.. I was up till 1am last night for the previous ep, then got up at 6am for the live chat, then had a shift from 7am-4pm at my only remaining job. Got home at 5pm and have been working with my shitty lil lagging laptop since then. It's 12.20am right now and my eyes sting so much, and I really can't look at my screen anymore. 

It's been one of those days. Sorry, y'all. I really wanted to get this one up earlier. I was at 3 days early access, then 2 days, then 1 day... but as these eps have gotten longer and as I've been pumping them out every single day in a rush to catch up with the rest of the world and to have them out for everyone to enjoy, it's truly been the hardest I've ever worked.

I'm stupidly tearing up/getting super emotional at the moment, cos I am so physically/mentally exhausted. I just need sleep and I'll be ok. I think for my own sake I won't even join the live chat even though tomorrow's episode is a great one.

I have season 1 and season 2 of deleted scenes for dark, and part 1 and part 2 of bloopers up in the meanwhile which I hope you can enjoy until I get the early access vid ready. It's about 8 hours delayed. So not that bad I guess, but I just feel overwhelmingly guilty that some of y'all might have signed up for my Patreon because of that sole reason and I've let you down, you know?? 

Some good news... I'm buying an iMac tomorrow if it all goes well. My friend found one for me on  Facebook marketplace and the specs look great enough to process projects as big as the ones I work on for editing. I just couldn't wait another month for it and continue to torture myself on this laptop lol. Anyway, first world problems I know. I'm going to sleep and work again in the morning. 

Thanks for understanding x Mary