Patreon exclusive! "It's Christmas Eve" (Patreon)

Hello my dear patrons! As promised, here's my new Christmas song "It's Christmas Eve" a week before it's official release on stores and streaming platforms next Monday December 7. 

I started writing this song about five years ago, working on the melody every now and then, but didn't seem I was going to finish it anytime soon - until around November 20Jose & I had a conversation with a friend about his continued struggles with his parents, that mirrored those of mine and reminded me of the problems my dear Eleazar here had months ago. 

I used to hate Christmas. Did that for years, most of all after my grandparents passed away.

I used to hate them because I was always somehow reminded by my “real” family that I didn’t belong, that I was someone who they were ashamed of, simply because I was gay.

Maybe it was the uncomfortable silence when everyone else talked about their lives and I just couldn’t because I didn’t want to see that look on their faces again, maybe it was because the songs they sang and the images they shared only painted out again and again a society were I was not represented.

That made me be depressed many times, grumpy or just longing to be isolated and numb from all those celebrations until January.

That was until I found my first gay true friend, a lovely fellow almost 20 years older than me. He introduced me to his friends and for the first time I began to feel accepted. Christmas was near that year, and I joined him and his friends to a gathering at an older couple’s home. It was like stepping in wonderland for the first time. Christmas decorations, santa hats, shiny balls on the tree and socks under the chimney. Those guys celebrated Christmas big time!

That warmth, the approving look in their eyes, made me feel I belonged for the first time. and they told me about something I had never thought of: our chosen families.

After a year that has been arduous enough, I wrote this Christmas carol to celebrate friendship, love, those who are no longer here and our chosen families. It took me five years to finish the melody but just an hour to write the lyrics, once I knew what I wanted to say. Thank's to the help of Jose Spinnin and Jeremy Morse I was able to finish it in time.Join in the warm feeling of this friendly song, in hope of a better future for all.