Sketch batch and little message. (Patreon)

I wanted to say thanks to you all, it has been a rough year, not financially, the patreon has been doing best than ever,  commissions keep comming, is been a great year on that regard. But my head is no good, I don't know if its the time being in a different place far away from home, the fact the place that was my home is no more, or the constant lose of members of my family. I ain't even done grieving my cat from years back, and carry on the deaths in this past 2 years of my gran grandma, two aunts, a cousin that was like a brother and an uncle that had always been there since i was a kid, he used to give me this chewy candy at his office... They just keep going away and life feels more empty every time, no time to process, just one blow after blow. Like there is nothing else, suddenly living feels more like a chore that you carry on doing because you dont want those around you feel hurt, you keep telling your self to continue for someone else rather than for your self and that just amplifies the empty feel.

I'm considering saving up to seek psychological treatment. Depression has been affecting me, my memory is all over the place, i forget clients and actions constantly. Could be half way in a commission when i find me doing something else out of the sudden. Need more and more coffee just to keep me focus. And frankly you dont deserve half asses works from me, you all have given me an amazing support through the year. I guess some have notice given for people's commission stuff that seem directed at cheering me up, it might be simple stuff or unintentional, like a client that wanted my character face in one of theirs underwear up there, but is a cheer up for me.

I feel happy to have you all in my life, and I don't want to give up, I want keep going, I want to renovate my strengths to bring you more of what I can do. I want to do better by you, and I want to find that fire in me to follow on again. So that's what I wanted to share.

Characters are: Blaze the cat, Hilda and Gaijinka of Machamp, clien'tOCs Eve (the Frankenstein girl) and Dr. Nora Milfenstein, jade from dying light, Courtney from Pokemon, Tsunade and Sakura.