Winner of the poll 3rd place Weiss Schnee (Patreon)

Im mad, at my self. I have been trying for over a year to catch up to the people who are clearly better than me, im using their techniques, methods, structure. And i feel like im not making progress. Or if I'm it is a very slow progress. I keep trying to get more of my self but its like there is nothing more. I tried with a teacher, but he really didnt taught me much. i see tutos I practice every day, I work every day, I push my self everyday, I push me to the point i required a fucking surgery, but everything seems so far.

Then when I think Im doing fine that Im making a bit of progress, "oh this is a nice pic", I see what they post, the ones that I look up to. And I feel like what I do is nothing but cheap trash. Nothing but garbage. All this effort and I cant seem to get past this wall.

I just have been feeling really down lately. Maybe I just need to try harder.I think if my progress is so slow, I just need to double it or something. I dont know, I really dont know what to try at this point.