Future of the Toast? Rant (Patreon)

While surfing around I ran into a shygal that had this kind of body. It took a while to figure out it was a head hack. Then I tried my hand at female Venom etc. While looking some more i realized there is a lot of models I would want to play with, but have no access to for various reasons. After ranting to someone I know, I was complaining about the software i was using and stuff. Also talking about how i could just make the models myself if i had the software i used to use -Maya. Then it kind of hit me, wait why don't i use that anymore....oh yea the price. This is when i first started with no job and no patrons. I went to look again and I think i can actually afford this. I kind of lit up at this point. 

The only thing now is my computer, I need a new one. This one works just fine and i love it. Dam toaster of a computer kicks ass. As of now im collecting money to get myself a new computer, getting the software and pretty much upgrading. This way i can tailor models for myself and others if needed. Then actually create OCs. My dream was always to make characters not just for this, but for me and this other thing i always wanted to make. I can't draw and 3D work was the closest thing i could achieve to making my characters. I want to to go back to that.

After going through tremendous amount of emotional turmoil that i feel should of happened waaay sooner in my life. There is numerous things along the way that worry me. I just want to make sure im in a good spot to be able to change whenever and not worry about financial instability. If i can do that, then i will be around until something(out of anyone's control) happens.

I want this to work and will try my dam-nest(is that the right word?) to try to make it happen. I for sure want this to happen by the end of the year. I'll be trying to make it happen as soon as possible. Just setting up some kind of dead line. That's all I wanted to write i think.

Also still working on stuff. Miranda winning is almost done and a soundless rough preview is up for Toaster patrons. I wanted to post it 2 days ago, but i got called in to work and then just fell asleep.