Not How I Meant To Sound (Patreon)

I'm sorry if my last (deleted) video post struck you the wrong way. I tried very hard to get my own point across, but it was not received. I'm not "entitled". I'm not "selfish". I wanted to share a unique part of my life with my Patreon subscribers. I wanted to let you in to a part of my life I usually keep private. (My future and plans). I understand that the impact of this virus shutting down things affects EVERYONE. But I'm not "everyone" so I tend to share my own personal impacted life. I lost $3,200 in 2 hours tonight. Everything is non-refundable. I've wasted 2 months in the Texas rain for nothing. I'm depressed and irritated, yes. But I have my health. I can still go anywhere I want, as long as it's not a public gathering-type venue. I will let my current videos run as scheduled, and then I might take some time off. Possibly weeks or months. I put too much into all this planning... and it all came CRASHING down painfully in a matter of hours today. I'm sure some have been hit harder by the closing of everything, but this is still MY LIFE on display, and I'm going to talk about MY LIFE at times. (Go figure) I'm sorry if my real life offended you or hit you the wrong way. Like I said, just wanted to explain the reasons and what's going on. It was not received as I had hoped. I need some time. Videos up til March 23rd are previously recorded. After that, I don't know. -Eric.