the art of getting the f*ck in front of the camera (even when you don't want to) (Patreon)

I'm going to be real honest with you all for a second:

I've been hiding.

I've been avoiding getting in front of the camera,

avoiding self portrait sessions,

avoiding the practice I have spent so long cultivating.

I have been hiding from observing myself and facing the work that comes along with it.

I know that is an act of self preservation.

I know that the growth comes from the squidy feelings, 

from staring at the discomfort and saying f*ck it, and doing it anyways.

But I've been hiding all the same.

And it's okay. I'm giving myself grace, softness, and tenderness for my aversion to this practice, and my need to hide.

But I'm ready. 

I'm ready to observe, to do the work, to see myself, and to make space for this new version of me that is ready to emerge.

If you've been hiding, too: it's okay. I see you, and it's okay to come out whenever you're ready. To be seen whenever you're ready to not hide any longer.

We are allowed to be safe, be small, and to hide when we need to.

But.

We deserve to be seen, to see ourselves, and to celebrate ourselves. 

And I'm f*cking ready to start seeing myself again.