Still not there... (Patreon)

Hello my dear patrons,

As you probably already noticed, I failed to deliver the new comic (Illuminaughti) yesterday. The reason for that is that I'm finding myself in a bad mental state for the last couple of weeks, and that's been preventing me to progress with the comics work.

One of the more irritating things about depression is that I feel upset about by my own work. I keep second guessing every step of the process and going in circles, doing and redoing stuff, seeing it always as subpar.

Then it gets to the point that all that restarting becomes an anxiety minefield, with so many little triggers, halting the entire process for days (...or weeks).

Then comes the guilt that I'm failing my deadlines and my responsibilities to you and it all simply spirals into an even worst clusterfuck of a nightmare.

The silver lining is that this isn't the first (or tenth) time I go through with it. It's usually a temporary situation that I eventually manage to overcome.

In my previous experiences, the first step is doing this: recognizing the issue and being transparent to you guys that I'm working on being better.

Then, my plan is using this weekend to regroup my energies and focusing on start afresh next Monday, with the commitment of making daily posts about the progress made, until the next comic is ready for release.

To make things a bit less bad, I'm also sharing a preview with the first page for the November comics, which I should have done much earlier this month.

I deeply apologize for the inconvenience I'm causing and reinforce my appreciation for your support. 

Thank you once again for your kindness.

-T.