weekly talk 229 (Patreon)

Hoy, here we are, here we go

Workflow:

I did only one picture in a week.. but.. i said i wouldn't think like that in the future, that when i do a bigger thing i shouldn't push me too much.
So , it was bigger than i wanted, i struggled a lot on the pose and some details, and if you see the WIP i think you can notice how much the Kerillian pic changed over the days.
But then, it's done, so what this week.
Started working on a 27k picture of Gobi, i think i need to do a something simple, for me, to shake a bit the frustration off and put me back into the rythm
I'll stream it a bit later. Sketches and rough are already made in my sketchbook, ll report on computer
Then i'll work on last HQ of february and focus the rest of the week to finish all monthly reward of february remaining, i want to at least finish them before June.
Once that done ll have the comms and the Tau CYOA last episode, and.. well, at least i'll be more light on the stuff to do.
I Think i won't reopen comms yet once it's done, i ll want to finish all remaining late monthly reward before i do
It's ok, i'll manage! Everything ll come in the end!

Art block?

It's not really an art block i live recently, because drawing come easy, it's more a question of pressure. I'm like "ho th picture should be that beautifull, or that quality, and i don't allow me to just have fun. I know, it's stupid, i know i did this again and again in the past. So you won't be surprise this time again.
I just want to deliver good quality and feel bad when i dont. So, sometime, just not drawing, do anything else, help. It's not a solution, but it's a thing.
I'll try to be more carefree in the next weeks. I know also that when i do peoples tned to love my work even more. Like, each time i say i'll, some commissioner are afraid, and they seems weirdly to love what i produce afterward.
I think it's mostly because what i see as carefree and more "wild" is more from a personal point of view and don't really impact on quality in the eyes of my followers :/
Who know, anyway, i want to deliver. I want to feel having fun while drawing!

Eisenhorn:

On a more  light hearted note, i bought myself the anthology of Eisenhorn books, volume 1. So it's the first three book compacted into one. Started reading it, and damn, that's good!
For those who dunno it, or just heard, here is a spoiler free resume.
The book is set in 40k universe, and you follow the inquisitor Eisenhorn, as he hunt the heretics, the xenos and the demons into the Imperium of man. What is good in the book is first the way it's written. It's not a space opera, but more a polar in the way it's made. There's a definite 'film noir" feeling into it, as you follow a human being, yes with many powers, but yet, a human, fighting against eldritch entities and gods and their followers.
Eisenhorn is also a good surprise as a character. You often see the inquisitors as those sort of robocop like creature, cold and unfeeling, going a la Judge Dredd "i am the law" and not caring for the consequences. But if he domorally wrong things, it actually impact him.
In the very begining of the first tale, he cross the path of a woman, whom get into some of the early events of the book (i won't tell to not spoil). The woman is slowly dying, she won't survive, it ll be long, painfull, and he can't do anything. He want to shorten her suffering, but if he do, he fear that the heretics he hunt might hear the gunshot and escape, causing more suffering like this one. So he go, letting the girl slowly die, explaining how in the coming weeks each time he would close his eyes, and now years later, he often see her pleading face over and over.
And as long as the story goes, you can see the impacts of what he see, what he witness slowly having effect on him, going more and more stern, more and more closed on.
Anyway, good series, only at the begining, good surprise, I recomand it!

Thats about it, thanks for reading this far, and c ya soon!