Thanks a lot! (Patreon)

Just a quick message to tell you all, thanks.

It had been a hard week. I know, there's suffering in the world, and me loosing Ed wasn't that a big deal compring to other losses or event. But it was at my personal level, and you can't qunatify pain or attachment. For me it was the worst thing that happened to me at a personal level, this year. I hope there won't be worse for the last 4 month :/

All to say, thanks for all the messages, the comment, even the little likes on this horrible picture i did on the moment, of him.

I get better, i mean, i'm still sad, a bit numb, i still have those lil heart bump when i see something in the corner of my eye and my spirit tell me "IT S HIM!!"
I think i don't realize fully yet. At least at a subcouncious level.
But at least i'm not crying anymore each time i get sad and wanna hug him before realizing i won't be able ever again.
Life continue.

I think it hit me hard cause it was the first time i loose a pet. Younger that was this family cat, but wasn't mine and if it was a bit sad, wasn't as bad for me as it was for my brother. it was his cat, he used to sleep with him etc etc.

So first time hit really hard. And i'm first surprise how bad it punched me tbh

Anyway this long "SHORT" message took a big more than that, i'm ready to go back to work, don't say a "take your time" retaking your life and  a normal rythm is part of this time to get better, at least in my opinion.
Gotta feed myself after all.

Thanks again guys

c ya soon