Weekly talk 273 (Patreon)

Hoy

Workflow

So this week, we finished the HQ, we worked on a gobi picture, and i started two comms, that i plan to finish in the next days of the week.
Most is done already, wh a weekly talk so late? I Explain a bit later

Stress days

i'm really stressed lately.
Before i was a quite sociable person, i loved to go to group and meet peoples. Now... I dunno when it happened, but if i'm still able to go talk to strangers, it build a shit tons of stress to me.
And recently i've been forced more and more to interact on long interaction with strangers.
The roomate change, the issue with a water leak. Several thing that mix administrative nightmares and meeting and talking to a shit tons of person.
i'm an illustrator, i work home, alone most of the time. I Love to interact to peoples but meeting new persons build up stress like nothing.
And it's becoming hard to cope.
i'll take a full week in the middle of April, to visit my family, mostly also cause i need a break off. I know, it's certainly weird, this guy is an artist, and he complain for stress when i work my ass off all day at work.
Yes. But being an artist is already stressfull, the instability, and lack of insurance that you would still have money tomorow.
The recent Mastercard and Patreon thing, each day i woke up with angst to my belly to see a notice from patreon telling me someone didn't liked one of my pic or that something look a bit suspicious for them so they re gonna kill my whole page.
That stress, the peoples stress, all of that pile up recently. And I'm not a strong willed man. I tend to avoid conflict as much as possible because i know i don't work well with it. I can manage myself, i'm a grown up and being autonome for decades now. But i would lie to tell that i tend to avoid as much things i know would be troublesome for my psychological health as possible.
All to say it's why i took my time to answer this week. Just wasn't in the best possible mental state to talk to peoples.

Gobi, Gily and the rest

I will try to draw my girls more in close future. I wanna do that for me, the Gobi picture i'm making, it's a love work, i sent to had tiny details and test stuff cause i can draw my girls again. I told it several time, but i think it's to cope with it.
I always have the idea that.. it's my stuff, you guys aren't here for seeing me have fun with my characters..
i know, it might be stupid, but each time i feel like i should appologize or justify myself for drawing those things.
Not the best thing to do X)
I might try to cheat it one day, like open a discount comm if you ask for a thing with one of my OC? I dunno.
Just ideas thrown to the wind. All to say, i hope that if you're not into my goblin girls you'll excuse me for drawing them more
and if you're into it, sorry for not drawing them more.

Anyway, thanks again for reading this far

And c ya soon!