Update (Patreon)

First of all I'm so sorry for my absence. There has been so much going on in my life lately and it has been really hard staying motivated and positive. There are just so many unexpected things happening that every small responsibility makes me incredibly anxious. I feel like I don't deserve your patience and I will do everything to pay you back somehow to make it good again. Recently I had to move immediately because my flatmate kept creeping me out more and more and I just couldn't live in this constant fear anymore. Luckily I have my family to help so they helped me move my stuff somewhere else before he could notice, and I'm able to have a place to sleep until I have a new home. It has been really stressful and I still notice how I flinch to sounds because I was scared for some time now that he comes into my room. He is a heavy drinker and was sometimes behaving really unpredictable. I don't want to waste your time with every detail but for some months I haven't really had a place to feel safe so that has really dragged my mental health down.

 I fortunately stayed safe and healthy from Covid and I'm glad that my family does too, although we're currently in a lockdown here in Germany so my tattoostudio is shut. I was actually really happy after I received this information because it gave me time to focus on myself again after neglecting myself for quite some time and exclusively focusing on work and money. I'm in contact with my therapists again and trying to get out of my anxiety. I feel so much shame to have ghosted you all and it made it even worse because I felt I couldn't do anything to make it better because my creativity and motivation is at an low.

I plan to make my Patreon inactive for now, I will work on myself and move into a new flat again and get comfortable. I'd appreciate if you could still stay in the Discord or follow the Patreon if you want updates in the future. I can't repay you now, but I'd love to draw for everyone who I still owe art to in the future so I'd love to still have a way to contact you! If you have anymore questions please feel free to ask, I will try to answer them as good as I can! Thank you so much for everything guys <3