I need your help. (Patreon)

i've been thinking if i actually wanted to post this or not, due to some personal insecurities. but like the title says, i do need your help.

i currently need 2000$ for my dad's prostate cancer operation.

first off, let's talk about my mental health concerning art; right now, i feel extremely burned out, not only because i've been focusing a lot on comms (which i do feel a bit like i've been "too slow" on em, huge sorry for my current commissioners), to the point where i am starting to feel anxiety whenever i work on commissions, reason why i have been doing a lot of "me stuff" lately. but there are other things. i feel like lately i've also been second guessing my art and my relationship with my audience, i've been very insecure about what i do because of what my audience will think of me. id love to make more women, and straight porn, and trans characters, and maybe more fetish work, like, smegma, or paws or non consent. but theres always a voice in the back saying "your fans wont like this, people follow you because of your twink dudes or buff men, they dont want trans males, tits nor vaginas."... and i know its not really healthy to worry so much about "what others will say", but the thing is, i depend on this. i depend on paypal, and patreon, and guess what, they dont like non con, or hell, they dont even like porn, so there's always the fear of someone getting angry or whatever, and then report my account. i know is weird, and very paranoid, but, you know it also *could* happen.

"but wait, what does this have to do with us helping you?"... well.

last year, my dad was diagnosed with prostate cancer and diabetes. while there have been sad moments, like when i first saw my dad having to take insulin, or very scary moments, like when my dad began grew pale and shaky one morning and had to be taken into the doctor, i was all together "chill", because, well, he has his own business, and everything at home seems to be ok, they have food, they have power, water, they're not struggling.

but, months ago, my dad began using one of these, "pee bags", because of the prostate issues, and now, he needs to be operated to take the pee bag out. problem is, he needs 2000 dollars.

like i said, i was chill, because i thought he had it under control. but it has been months since, and he still has not been operated, and i recently fount out, it's because he cannot afford it.

normally, i would have just opened as many comms as necessary to help him. but, like i said, i am currently extremely burned out, i have a lot of comms and projects pending, so just, dumping another 2k worth of comms on my back... i just cant do that at the moment. so, thats why i need your help.

like i said at the start, i dont feel comfortable just asking for money without giving people something in return, hence why i was insecure about posting this. but i also need to help my dad. so for the first, and hopefully, last time, i am asking for charity. it doesnt need to be much, whatever you can give, is much appreciated.

so, if you want to help, if you want to donate, please contact me. i love you all so much, thanks for reading, and sorry for the long text. goodbye.