Pausing Pledges This Month (Patreon)

Hey guys, it's been a while.

I'll try to be honest here. Writing has been difficult for me recently. Normally when I stop writing it's because I'm lacking focus or motivation. I've sat and rewrote this current chapter about 4 times, and I'm being overly critical. I'm also making the process painful for myself. I haven't been managing my relationship with writing, and that sucks.

I'm not going to stop writing, but I really need to change my approach. I've trying to set up my entire life for writing. I don't know if that's healthy over the long term. Writing used to be something that added to my life, and now it's something that consumes me. I spend all my energy on it, and then I'm left with nothing.

I'll be trying to do other things, socialize, workout, even play videogame or read. I'll find myself underperforming in those areas, and before I know it, I'll be criticizing myself for it. I'm doing that with everything recently. It's a sort of mental hole, a psychological pathology I'm committing against myself. I need to iron it out, and that might take time.

I want to write more. I want it more than anything. I just need to sort some stuff out for now, and that's why I'm pausing pledges this month. Thank you all for understanding should you choose to do so. I also don't blame any of you for being frustrated. I'm frustrated with myself too, so I understand the sentiment.

Regardless, I hope you all have a wonderful new year and had a merry Christmas. May you all find wonderful books that are fulfilling.