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As you may have noted, I was full silent on February. That's why I paused the Patreon's fees, you won't be charged until I'll share anything new there so don't worry about it ! I've got many reasons for it but I'll be short : I need a social media break to focus on myself again.
At the end of January, I couldn't draw anymore and it hurt. It hurts cause lately I'm on a lot of stress and being able to draw was nearly the last thing I had for myself. So when I stopped and it was worst cause I was feeling guilty to not be working. Even if I try to keep standing, last years were complicated with so many losses, I feel like maybe I didn't take time to fully grief and maybe it's time to do it.
Internet is a wonderful place where I've found you and a lot of amazing persons but it drained me. I mostly draw for me but lately when I was working, I couldn't stop myself thinking things like "ho I hope I'll get at least 100 notes on this one !", "maybe I need to post more colours to be noticed ?", "I should draw more of X and Y to get some views", "Omg I didn't post for 2 days, I'm gonna lose visibility !"... AND I HATE THIS. I hate this mindset, it's not me. Of course I want to share my drawings with you but... I should draw for myself first ! And playing the algorithm game on t/witter or Ins/ta isn't what I want to do.
I want to draw, not to make "content".
So I'll post only there. And without pressure, only things I WANT. I hope to be back on tracks for my birthday... Yeah, middle life crisis haha ! But I feel I really need it. So as I've said on top, the fees will be stopped until I'm fully back as I don't want to put any pressure on myself until I feel fully ready ! I want to be happy drawing, not feeling forced to.
See you soon and sorry for the silent month ! I can't wait to be ready to share happily with you again. Maybe I'll be back with more comics ?? Who knows ! I'm already excited and I miss drawing, feels like a good point already, no ?
See ya <3