Happy holidays and see you on January ! (Patreon)

Hello everyone !

You - may - have noticed that I went nearly full silent last month... Long story short : artblock and work at the shop.

In the beginning of December, I attended the Ycon, a French LGBTQI+ Convention and things WERE GREAT. Really, I had so much fun, so much love, it was overwhelming. And back home I had so many orders from my shop it was amazing, people made me cry of happiness, sincerely. But after a few day, my anxiety came back in full force and I was unable to draw. I disliked everything, I was feeling like a fraud and went really down morally. My hand was shaking everytimes I tried to draw anything and I was getting envious of others. Believe me I HATE THIS FEELING.
On top of that I was supposed to be working only 15-20h max per week at the shop since November but life being life, I'm still at 30-45h. And believe me, it makes a BIG difference especially at Christmas when the working days in the shop are nearly 10-12h long shift when I spend the days running from customers to customers without even time to rest in between. So even if I did less than last year (where I ended up totally broken after 200h of work in one month), I'm still tired as hell.

So I have to think about solutions cause I can't stay crying in the corner. It's not me, I deserve better, you too ! 2022 was a strange year, I've got a lot of conflicted thoughts about it but, hey, I'm still here. Amazing people like you are still around so things aren't so bad. So here's what I'm gonna do :
I'm gonna pause my Patreon's fees for the next month. What does it means for you ? Just that you won't be charged on the 1st January but I'm still gonna post drawings here. I'll use this month to catch up on rewards for the previous months (drawings and suggestions !) and to finish my 2022 commissions.

I'm lucky enough to be financially good for January because of the convention and my shop. Thanks to YOU !
I'm gonna take the next days to really rest for once cause I need it. I feel like I was nearly burning myself again because my anxiety never hit me so hard and so quick than this month. So I'm gonna take time for me, to read, to relax in front of a movie or anything, just not thinking "I have to draw something". No, a real break this time.

So until next week, I wish you the best, I hope you've got perfect holidays with your beloved and time to rest ! Take care of you and everyone you love and see you very soon my lovelies for new drawings, new stories and... A better start this time as I FINALLY HAVE LESS JOB AT THE SHOP YES !

June

Ps: Sorry for the long blathering, I want to be fully transparent with you !