Weekly Journal (May 16th) (Patreon)

Hello my children.

My hands are weak. My brain is tired. By body is ready. Mom's Spaghetti.

It is upload week. This weekend you will see a new Psych of Play on Losing. Usually I'm very plugged in to the next video going up and I can sell you on it early in the week by talking about why I think it's special, how I'm feeling about it, etcetera. 

This is not the case today. I feel a vast chasm between myself and this video. It feels like I finished it years ago because I am currently on this next episode like white on rice. I am so lost in the sauce. I am so immersed in writing this next script that even right now I am struggling to remember that writing this post is not currently this next script. Am I writing this script right now? Wait, this isn't google docs. I almost typo'd and wrote google dics. Oh this is Patreon, I'm writing a patreon post. Whoa.

Anyways, the video I'm writing now will be out on June 4th. Look forward to that. I sort of... lumped my new video idea in with another video I was planning on making simply because 1) it worked nicely and 2) the thumbnail I drafted is fucking F U E G O. Or at least I think so. I could also just be simping. Idk. My mind is like that bottle of dish soap that's practically empty but you keep on squeezing it because there's just a liiiiiiiitle bit left in there. And every time you do it makes that "PFFT" sound. So then you get impatient and pour in water and shake. This gives you bubbles which "feels" like soap but is obviously less concentrated. And then you finally go to the store, get your groceries and afterwards you do your dishes and you're like "AW DAMMIT I FORGOT DISH SOAP". So you just use the hand soap which feels wrong but you do it anyways. Or maybe you aren't boojie and you also wash your hands with dish soap so there's only one bottle available. Then you're in real trouble. Anyways, yeah I'm tired.

BUT all that aside, I feel really damn good. I like both of these videos I'm working on and and  and and overall I feel kind of... excited about the future. I have a lot of great topics lined up for a change and it's starting to be fun to make videos again. It's also fun actually playing games again. I'm trying to get a few smaller titles played as well as get through the juggernauts like Xenoblade. I think overall I need to play more games which starts with attacking my backlog and I've made a strategic effort to get that done with the anime I want to watch. Now I just need to do the same for my games. It all comes down to sticking with a schedule.

That's enough rambling. You are a treasure, you are good enough, and you are in control. Go fucking slap this day across the face and apologize then ask it nicely to go your way.