My confession (Patreon)

I think everyone needs an explanation why I can't shoot anymore at the moment.

I live in a multi-storey building, with a lot of people. Therefore, it was very difficult to shoot in principle. It was possible only in the dead of night or early in the morning. Recently, my neighbors turned out to be a big noisy family of 10! a person, 5 of whom are children. This negated all attempts to find a quiet time. They are constantly active (small children do not know that shouting and running at night is not right).

In parallel, I have two more jobs: a tattoo artist and a volunteer at an animal shelter, as well as I will fulfill all sorts of small orders as a graphic designer.

My mother has oncology and most of the funds are spent on medications and examinations, so I can't rent a studio for myself. Dad, I don't have him in general, he stopped communicating with me when I left Germany to personally support my mother during this difficult period. She lives in Kazakhstan, for those who didn't know it. And so am I for now.

Salaries here are in the region of $ 200-300 per month, and my expenses at the moment come out monthly in the amount of $ 2000. Mom does not work, because she is constantly in pain and she has been on disability since 2019. I am the only one who supports the two of us and 10 animals (3 dogs and 8 cats rescued from the street).

I understand that many people see only a beautiful picture and think that I am awash in money and attention. I don't blame anyone and accept everyone's opinion.

I just want you to know that we are all just people and everyone has their own burden, big or small. Don't offend people you don't like for some reason. Perhaps it's just very difficult for them and aggression or apathy is just a way of protection.

Thank you for reading to the end.

I apologize if I ruined the image of an easy, naive and stupid girl.

I appreciate all the heartfelt support that you have all given me and continue to provide.

I appreciate everyone!

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If you have read to the end, then you are not indifferent to my feelings. Special thanks for that...

I am currently raising money for nuclear therapy for my mother in Germany, the cost of which is 25385 euros. For me, this is now an unbearable amount, since I also pay off a loan for studying at the university.

If you have the opportunity to help financially or with distribution on the Internet, I will be forever grateful!

My PayPal is cupcakesweetdreams@yahoo.com

For all questions or physical evidence of the disease, you can write to me by email or in a personal account here.

I pray for a miracle and believe that Mom, me and you will be fine!