May Wrap-Up! (Patreon)

What's Blue up to these days?

May was fun, I've started riding my bike again and I forgot how much I missed it. I've spent the past couple of years locked into that exhausting quarantine depression feeling (if y'all know what I mean) where I'm not as active as I once was. I used to dance, bike, and hike a ton. I'm finally getting back into all that and it feels amazing!!

I don't generally talk about this sort of thing, as the majority of my audience tends to be heterosexual guys (Hello and welcome!!), but here's something I wrote a while back that's been on my mind these days.

With Pride coming up I've been thinking a lot about my journey to get where I am now, where I feel safer being out in public with my same sex partners. My partners, my queer friends, and I all feel the same overwhelming undercurrent of anxiousness as most of us came from households where our real identities weren't accepted. Most of us still have to pretend we're straight when we go home for the holidays.

I find myself wishing every day that we lived in a better world, where me and my friends and people like us didn't have to constantly be scared of getting hurt by people who should love us unconditionally, just because of the people we love.

I grew up in a really homophobic community in the southern USA. I'll never forget being called all kinds of horrible names by people just for looking at a girl I liked for too long, for holding her hand (my heart nearly beat out of my chest and I was absolutely useless for the rest of the day, haha!)

I remember thinking that if the people who were disgusted by me loving this girl could just feel, for one second, the pure joy and deep, contented affection I felt whenever I saw her smile...surely they would get it. Me and that girl ended up never really getting together (although we're still friends to this day and she's now married to a wonderful woman who treats her like the queen she is). I wish we hadn't grown up in a town where we were too scared to be together.

I'm grateful my life eventually lead me to a better place. I'm happy to be able to put a pride flag in my window without the glass getting smashed. I'm happy I can go out in public with my femme presenting partners (mostly) without getting harassed. I'm sad I had to move pretty much as far as geographically possible from my hometown to do it. But I'll take it!!

I hope for anyone reading, who is also in a place in their life where they are finally able to stop hiding, that you are able to find peace in a better place as well. ❤️ Thinking today of my fellow queer folk around the world who live in that painful silence for their own safety. I wish I could hug you and tell you how strong you are. I hope one day you won't have to be strong anymore.

What's the news in terms of audio?

Moan-your-name audios are still in progress!! 😅 I put up an announcement this morning about I-M name deliveries being delayed by one day. I'll be delivering them tomorrow night! A-H names have already been delivered, so if you ordered a 2 or 3 minute audio you should hopefully have received an email from me already (lookingformybluesky@protonmail will be the email it comes from, so check your spam if you haven't received it yet). I start working on N-Z names this upcoming week, and will hopefully have all of those delivered by 6/11. I'll keep y'all updated!

I got permission from a few different authors to record and post some SFW scripted works to Patreon and YouTube, so be on the lookout for those as they're completed!! I'm working on those as an extra side project in between other things. 😎

I have a couple of new collabs in the works, including someone I've never collabbed with before who I think you'll be thrilled to hear! You should see those in late June or July.




Random Trivia

What is Blue listening to these days?

I just started listening to Two Hot Takes and every time I listen to a new episode I feel like that meme of the guy laughing and eating salad next to a poster of a group of friends. Externally: "Lmao yes you are so right my dude" Internally: Why in the fuck am I replying to the people on the radio like they can hear me

How is your D&D campaign going?

If these idiots don't kill Strahd soon I'm gonna kill him myself. Just kidding, I'm enjoying making his traps more and more elaborate. I've sent them on a wild goose chase for a weapon some random peasant told them they could use to kill him, which they fully believed without rolling a single insight check or questioning how this person knew this whatsoever. This is why you always check your news sources, friends. Luckily my players are extremely good humored and I know they're gonna find it hilarious when they fight their way through this dungeon only to find a triple locked chest with a coffee stained note saying "gotcha" and then get attacked by Strahd again. Yeah...they're gonna find it hilarious...at least I will!! 🤣

Blue's question for you this month:

How do you like to exercise? Weights, running, dancing, hiking, etc?