Indigestion (Patreon)

The follow up to the old (rejection) comic I did abt vladds eating issues

he gets officially diagnosed with an eating disorder. it’s a symptom of a grander issue like ptsd.  anxiety, survival state, closed barriers, hostility, paranoia, hallucinations and  flashbacks.  once he felt that he was “safe“ it ended up turning his brain against him. The loved ones feel like disembodied people, either dead in his nightmares or the ones who left him to rot. He can’t stomach blood and gore as it heavily reminds him of what he did and what was done to him. He can’t trust his nightmares and sometimes he can’t trust where he is as the two blurr together at The worst of moments. He feels unsafe to himself and to others and pushes them away. But the moment he broke- he ended up getting treatment and found that he was not left alone, and did not cause others an untimely end. But treatment is not easy.  he cannot simply forget the many years of mental torture, fortifications, and subsequent mind breaks and earthquakes he had to endure till now. he’s at the moment that he cannot even bear to take a sip of blood, much less look at it. He can only receive his dietary needs by having an invasive feeding tube attached to his stomach.  It’s a semi permanent solution to a severe prognosis. He’s unsure if he’ll ever recover.  he’s weary if the medication will help him sleep at night, or the therapy he’ll need to unpack his most broken states  of mind. Will he even want therapy? Can he ever be comfortable with a stranger invading his mind and prodding it’s most tender pieces? From the eyes of an unattached, cold lens, like a scientist reviewing the conclusion of an experiment? will he truly confide in his loved ones? can he stomache the troubling moment he breaks the unsteady vase of memories and let them form a messy blotch of water, for them to see and watch as it spreads and thins. Can he keep his dam from cracking and breaking once he sees their reaction?

its just indigestion, he says.