I need to apologize to you guys. (Patreon)

Hey guys. So I had a little emotional breakdown yesterday because because I’ve basically overworked myself again. This time not in terms of costumes but in terms of conventions

Since December last year I’ve basically done one con a month and this month I had 3 cons lined up and at the time of booking I was like “this will be great” not realizing I’m not actually built for this life. I’m a hermit I like to stay home and hide away. When I travel I almost lose an entire week, even if it’s just 2 days at a con, I lose the whole week cause I have 2 days of travel, then the con, and then 2 more days of travel, wherever I go my flights are between 12-18 hours. I also almost always travel on my own. Nobody is with me to help me it’s just me. And it’s just been taking a bit of a mental toll on me.

Something that’s happened because of the traveling now is that I am falling behind on everything in my life, my cosplay making, my exercise, eating well, taking care of myself, spending time with my partner, even cleaning my damn house it’s all just like building up and my entire life gets put on hold when I’m away.

I’m just feeling very overwhelmed and very stressed out because of this and I feel like I’m drowning. I know I’m still behind on some patreon rewards, I’m behind on so many photoshoots and I’m just really sorry. I don’t know what else to say but I’m so sorry for letting this happen.

I’m trying to cut down now on conventions I’ll be at for the rest of the year. I’m not sure If I will do any international conventions next year. As much as I love being able to be with people at the cons the logistical side of it, the travel side of it is just too much for me and it’s been taking away what I always loved most about cosplay and that’s actually making costumes, crafting, building and sharing that with people. I will not be booking any more cons this year. I’ve had to cancel some that I had planned later this year and I’m really really sorry about that. But I have to put my health first and get back to what makes me truly happy, I want to focus on my craft, I want to focus on patreon and I want to focus on twitch


I’m so sorry for neglecting you guys, I’m sorry for falling behind and being late again, I never wanted this to happen and I thought I could have it all under control but it got too much for me. I’m just really sorry and you guys are some of the most important people in my life so I feel so so horrible that I’ve let you down in some way.

I’m trying to be better going forward. Like I Said no new cons for the meantime just working on stuff, I will still do all the cons I’ve announced this year, but nothing else will be added until further notice. im going to try my best to catch up on everything that’s currently outstanding, I want to apologize particularly to everyone from feb still waiting for Evelyn photos and the video tutorial, I just keep taking one step forward 2 steps back :( I know it’s late and I keep saying “ tomorrow” because I legitimately think I can do it but it just keeps being too much and I keep not getting what I need to get done, done in my days at the moment.

I’m not working at my full ability now because I’m run down and I’m so sorry. Please try bear with me till July. Then it will be over and I can try get back to giving you guys 1000%.

I’m really sorry, I’ve like sat and cried about this a few times this year already and cosplay isn’t supposed to make me sad it’s supposed to bring me joy, so I’m gonna be working to get that back and give you guys the content you deserve

Thank you for supporting me and being patient with me. I’m sorry for the huge rambling post I just wanted to be open and honest about the situation right now because you guys need to know what’s going on