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A couple weeks ago I had a virtual reiki session with my friend, Mel (@melemlyn on IG). Reiki is a Japanese form of alternative medicine called energy healing. Generally hands are placed lightly on or just above the body to do this work. Yeah, I’m getting real hippie on y’all.

I know what some of you might be thinking… how the hell can one do *virtual* reiki?

I was so excited going into it because I’ve felt incredible things inside my body from reiki and qi gong before, but it’s been a while since I’ve had a session. Almost everything she told me after our session was incredibly reaffirming to the path I’m on and I felt really…whole? afterwards. (highly recommend booking with her if you’re interested. She’s a peach!)

Yesterday I had a session with an energy worker here in Las Vegas.

It wasn’t the kind of work I’ve had before, like reiki or qi gong. This was more…a mix of energy reading and counseling, followed with different types of healing. (I won’t go into specifics because it sounds kinda nuts for those who haven’t explore this type of work.) What I will tell you is that this woman’s intuition was crazy spot on. She never has met me and doesn’t know anything about me, but she knew so much. I was able to acknowledge several things in my life that are really holding me back and I’m starting to work on them more. The ones that really stood out were my relationship with money, giving myself credit, and figuring out what I want vs. what I need. The want vs. need is huge because it actually ties right in with money for me. I’ve always made enough money for what I’ve needed, but not quite what I want. And to be quite frank, I still don’t exactly know what I want. So much of me feels like…I guess…I don’t deserve more than what I have? That I should be content and not want for anything? There is some merit to that. I like not wanting fancy things. But in terms of just money alone, I would truly like to make more, mostly for the benefit of others. I could really delve into that, but I’ll spare you for now! lol

With most energy work, there is a level of psychic involved. To those of us who are used to it, we know this. For anyone not used to it, it can sound like total new age bs. And that’s exactly what I thought it was until my mid 20s. Once you feel these things happening in your body and soul, it’s hard to deny.

But that being said, I don’t believe every single thing that any spiritual person tells me. Aside from my experience with the Christian church, I’ve also had a pretty bad experience with a “shaman” who was practicing reiki on me. There are deceitful people in all walks of life, and especially in all types of spiritual practices because it’s very easy to take advantage of folks when they are soul searching.

For me, personally, this journey into spirituality is really special and sacred. I’m enjoying being able to CHOOSE my beliefs instead of being forced into it. With Christianity, I never had a choice. From birth, I was in the church and brainwashed to believe that if I didn’t accept Jesus into my heart as a my Savior, I would go to hell. Well no shit I got “saved”! I didn’t wanna burn forever. I don’t believe Christianity isn’t real. I believe it is PART of what spirituality is, and much like @tragicglamour talks about, I believe it can be combined with other things, or I think it can be left out of the equation all together.

With any type of energy work, counseling, spiritual practice, psychic readings, coaching, etc., what I love the most is how much I learn about myself. It helps me understand my mental health, my physical ailments, my mind, what my morals are, how I want to be treated and how to treat others better, and ultimately, it helps a lot with judging others and myself! less.

I don’t think it’s all 100% the way it seems. There is always room for error and I always keep that in mind. But this is really a very special journey for me. <3

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