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Good afternoon my dears! I hope you have been doing well today! Strong winds, and stronger rain for dear Seattle. Last few days certainly have been something. Recently I've felt a bout of depression again. The kind that weighs down the body and blankets the mind. So it has been a bit difficult for myself to feel drawn to just about anything. 

" Play a game! " Oh I just don't feel it, man. 

" Lay down and get some rest! " Nawwww...

" Get out and go walking " pfffft.....ft...ft...

You ever get so weighed down that you start to feel angry and irrational? It's kind of been like that. So the angrier I got, the more I drew myself to a very special selective corner. Leave it to the eccentric mind of an artist to try and make some sense of things. Teeth grinding, and legs shaking, I set myself bare on the table with...this. 

It can be a strange element to fight sometimes. The compulsion of art and ideas. Suppose that's what happens when you feel irrational. My head tells me to meet deadlines and continue stories, whereas my heart says " No. We do this now. " try and fight it, and the papers start to blind you. The keyboard melts beneath your fingers. The mouse clicks feel like they're in your head, and it's terrible. 

You know, Machine was one of my first larger stories I started with. I mean outside of my traditional comic work. It was this new step in my art logic. " How do I convey more with less? Do I really want to color all of this?! " That kind of starting territory with those ideas was just this big new gamble of an experiment, and I liked it. When I was done though, I felt this profound emptiness, and it wasn't just concluding something. It was feeling like I had left so much of that potential out on the floor. Some days I really think about it a lot, you know? 

Ah, sorry..sorry. I've got to head into work real soon and I won't be back until close to midnight. I really hate it because it feels like the moment I leave, that's it. The day is over, but I have to work for that. I'm just glad to get this off my chest with ideas and art. Well hey, I hope you like what you see. Good health be with you!