Housekeeping (Patreon)

Hey guys. Episode 6 of Breakout will be live Sunday night (August 4th) I wanted to make this post on the same day that the episode was posted but there are a few people that I need to immediately refund before the month ends as I do not want to have any further obligation to them past July. Aside from those few people, if you have been waiting for the past few months and would like to be refunded, please privately message me. I have no issues doing so and have maintained that ever since I made this patreon. Thank you to the people who continued their patronage even through the unreliability and uncertainty. I do sincerely apologize.

I can’t tell you how much of a chore it is to eat or be productive when your brain is constantly telling you that you’re tired. Turning on a laptop or writing out a long post explaining another delay was an even bigger feat. One bad day can easily turn into bad week. I even thought about rehoming my two dogs that I just got because it got to a point where I didn’t feel I would be able to adequately take care of them. The things that have happened in my personal life recently have 100% prevented me from editing or uploading. I would never lie and say I’m going to upload something knowing I wasn’t actually planning to. So to see people insinuate that or just flat out say that I’m a liar hurt but I get it lol. Feeling frustrated about me being unreliable as a creator during this time is completely valid and no one owes me grace. But there are people who feel that way and choose to handle it by quietly unsubscribing or messaging me for a refund, and there are people that feel that way and choose to handle it by voicing frustration and announcing that they’ll be unsubscribing under a post regarding the loss of my dad. It doesn’t matter which one anyone feels is right but it does matter which one aligns with the boundaries i’ve set on my patreon. And when I log in to see someone who has never paid me a dime or someone that just became a paying patron for very first time in mid July, chiming in and proclaiming that they’ve had to endure many inconsistencies from me, I’m reminded of why I created these boundaries in the first place lol.

I’m hoping that a refund(s) will be an adequate recourse for those who chose to emphasize the importance of money/business over human or personal issues in my public comment section. I agree that my communication has waned at times. But I can assure you that is has way more to do with the constant mental anguish and grief that I’ve had to endure in such a short time than it does my business acumen. Knowing that I’ve already had to previously delay content for less serious reasons only added to that anguish. I realize that nothing I say will appeal to anyone who doesn’t really care. Although, I don’t think I should be trying to appeal to anyone who refers to multiple back to back deaths in my immediate family as “instances” anyway. Seeing multiple people that refrained from sending any condolences choose to confidently speak up about their dissatisfaction, was as eye opening for me as I’m sure my inconsistencies have been eye opening for them. 

What I will say is that I’ve worked way too hard on this content over the years and lost too much sleep to let anyone publicly question my integrity. I’ve given up too much time with friends and family to be painted as a liar. And I pay too much for voice actors and licensing services to be painted as a grifter. I’m not 100% mentally but I’m well enough to start working on content again and I’m extremely determined to dispel any and all negativity that has found its way to my patreon community recently. I can admit that I may have opened the door for this type of negativity due to my inconsistencies, but I’m excited to prove people wrong and even more excited for you guys to see what’s in store. 💕