What happened (Patreon)

Hey, friends.
Sorry for a silence. I just wanted to let you know that I'm still here.
Past 4 weeks were very tough for me, possibly this is the worst time in my life ever. You know about Alexei's health but 2 weeks later something terrible happened again. March 30th after a severe and prolonged disease my mother passed away in the hospital. She was just 52. I said about that only in Twitter on Russian, I wanted to let my friends know. But I didn't want to receive supporting words like "hold up" again, like 2 weeks ago. I couldn't believe that mom is gone till her funeral. Only when I saw her the very last time I started to realize What happened. I cried all day and night and got an insomnia. I've never been so depressed, ever. She was the most important person in my life and now I even can't tell her about that. All these days I'm trying to distract my mind from it but I barely succeed.

You may see that I didn't tell my followers about that in my big socials like Insta or FB but just because I don't want to. This is too personal. I can't do that again cause I barely believe these comments are sincere. They won't help me and nobody will. The only reason I said about Aoki's health is this direcly affected on our presence at the convention. And now my situation affects on my work and activity here, on Patreon.

I just want to ask you (again) to be patient with me. I'm trying to keep my socials active and positive because nobody likes whiners. Just don't believe these socials, ok?

I need some time to get through this on my own.