💘 Fursona Doodlin’ (Patreon)

Today is my day off so I wanted to doodle my girls in my down time tonight as I’ve been running around town doing a bunch of errands before lockdown on Thursday. i have a pretty jam packed next couple days 😅 Doodling my girls was a nice fun thing for me to do! I doodled Dré first wearing a hoodie I saw and fell in love with, and Blake is wearing one of my cool shirtz hoodies!

Now, excuse me while I ramble a little bit. 

I wanted to draw Blake again to see if I can work on feeling connected to her again. I haven’t felt connected to Blake as a sona in quite a while now. for over half of this year if I’m being honest. She has felt more of a mascot and a face for my social media rather than being a representation of me as of late, and as I’ve been actively working on feeling like my own person and not just a face for social media, she’s kinda taken a back seat. Dré is my true sona, and I feel like I can completely indulge in my interests with her help and she just feels like me, 100%, where as Blake doesn’t. She has felt more like She is just for show, like she is how people are meant to perceive me and I don’t like that feeling anymore. It happened gradually and I didn’t even notice the role she was taking. I felt weird drawing Blake indulging in my interests because it wasn’t ‘her’, when she was meant to be me. I don’t like being placed on a pedestal or anything like that, to be honest I barely ever want to be perceived. I like to keep to myself most of the time, and Blake just felt like a beacon that attracted people so I grew distant from her.
I’m not really sure if any of that makes sense, I’m just rambling, but long story short, I wanna fix my connection with her. I want to make her more me, fix her personality. I wanna draw her in my hoodies and merch from anime and CC’s I enjoy. I wanna draw her with her glasses more and not be intimidated by her. No matter what my connection is with Blake at any point, she’s always gonna stay by my side. I’ve gone through a lot of things with her throughout the 8 years I’ve had her as a fursona, and I’d like that to continue. I want her to feel like my fursona again, and not just a mascot for my social media presence.