Mid-Month Update (Patreon)

Thank you so much to everyone who has continued to support me on Patreon, whether you’re a recent addition or a veteran.  Given how this year has been a complete disaster for many of us (for more reasons than one), I am extremely grateful to all of you for the continued financial backing and appreciation of my artwork.

I know me gushing platitudes is almost cliché now, but frankly, when I think of an alternate timeline where I hadn’t embraced this anthropomorphic art thing and got struck by 2020, it really does ring home just how supportive aficionados like yourselves are.  Thank you so much for everything, irrespective of whether it’s just this month, this year or the past five years since I started using this service.

It is with a heavy heart I write what comes next.

TL;DR:

Through no fault of anyone in particular, I feel it’s necessary for me to pause this Patreon again.  It’s the middle of the month and I’ve barely produced anything I ought to.  My will to work has simply dried up.  I have nothing left to give.

I don’t know whether it’s anhedonia (the loss of pleasure); or I overworked myself with commissions last month (I still have 5 left to do, at varying stages of completion); or I overestimated my ability to snap back to long-term Patreon projects, or it’s literally another round of weltschmerz (world-weariness) exacerbated by the ongoing pandemic and political, social and financial uncertainties…

Self-indulgent pity-party aside, I think it is only fair that you the consumer get what you paid for.  Ergo, if I am not delivering, you are under no obligation to pay.

In all honesty, I’m wondering if it’s better for me to back off Patreon until January 2021.  This lassitude has been an ongoing concern of mine since the summer and has only worsened as winter approaches.

But focusing on the here and now, I’ll endeavour to get as much work as I can done though.  I’ve not fallen out of love with drawing or producing work but I definitely am not feeling able to produce work at the normal pace.  I think I’ll have to do something about the tiers too since I feel I’ve too many…

Anyway, I apologise for any disappointment or inconvenience caused by all this.  Not my intent to lead any one up the garden path.

I’m hoping I’ll be able to recover from this ennui and get back to producing the content you love.

Stay safe, stay sane and thank you again for everything.

Yours Sincerely,

‘Kamidu