I need help! (Patreon)

Hey guys I've been trying to film the gg content but it was one of those days where my body won't listen to my mind or heart, after I filmed TWS and had lunch, I've had massive heart palpitations and had an anxiety attack all day.

Blaire used to calm me down and encourage me but now that I'm alone, especially in a dark empty 5 bedroom house, admittedly I've been freaking out and trying to calm down.

I've tried my various calming techniques and they keep me stable for a while but the underlying crippling anxiety won't go away. I can't stop tearing up even though I'm not sad. I've been trying to win over this myself for hours now, but I keep wasting time and have to admit I can't win over my dark thoughts alone.

I'm not tired and would really like to film the gg content so I'm opening up about my struggles and am open to any advice and strategies. The truth is I'm very lonely and scared, and I even considered going live but I don't think it would be healthy to show people this side of me on camera.

I thank you all in advance for your consideration and am open to trying any suggestions, no matter how bizarre, out of the box, or unconventional!

-Jaehyuk PD