DECEMBER SCHEDULE - Taking The Next Step (Patreon)

Hey folks. Exciting times.

This is the last month I am going to be filming a crazy amount and I'm going to reel it back starting February. A TON of our current reactions series will no longer be on Patreon, and instead, it's going straight for free on YouTube.

I will be shrinking my variety output on Patreon ONLY to the groups and shows I want (GOSE, enoclock, kkura, timetotwice, etc). Every other group I'm still gonna react to them on my own time, when I want, and they will go out for free on YouTube.

The focus of this Patreon going forward will be my passions: MUSIC & FILM.

Once in a while Blaire and I will binge some in our off hours for fun, and then release those reactions in batches.

November was a huge turning point for the both of us. Despite not working regularly, our mental healths took a huge dip and we started admitting the truth that we both have passionate dreams and we're too shy/self-depricating to admit it.

I am admitting out loud that I am going straight into the K-Pop music producing business now. I am taking all my filmmaking experience, marketing, lore building, and applying it directly to a group (in the future). I kept trying to fight it because it would mean having to work less and no longer financially support my family.

But I can no longer financially support my family at the cost of my own mental health.

Every dollar on this Patreon is going straight into my dreams now. I have very much told them so and moving back to LA as a result.

My mental health hit rock bottom when I was making the December schedule. I was once again trying to offer way too much shit and I needed to take a good hard look at what I truly want in life.

So despite my fear I reached the f*ck out and I had some really amazing deep conversations with some K-Pop producers whom were very encouraging. I'll be sitting down this month with producers who's had some great placements (maybe some of them are hybe songs, maybe even &team, and maybe even some of our favorites on here!)

I'm going into the studio with them and they'll be helping me get my ideas all down and crash course me through it. I've got a great ear but I'm woefully untrained and some awesome producers are willing to help me out and skip a few steps.

My dream is to make music like PSY, have high standards like JYP, and market like YG. But XG and their CEO from the documentary have been HUGE sources of inspirations to give me the final push to go for it.

I've always had strong beliefs for an amazing musical group. Hell I've written scripts about them. Idk how many years it'll actually take but that's the goal in the horizon. In the mean time? I'll be reacting, making some short films, still work towards bringing my visual projects to life, and making music/placements. And then when the time in my company's life is right... Establish a label. I've already been in talks on how to get that going but I won't do it until I have confidence as a musical producer.

That's the music side of things. So that means MORE listening parties, less variety (like this month).

On the film side of things?

All of this is eventually research for either films I want to make or more ideas and lore for any artists I produce in the future. So we'll be reacting to more dramas/serialized narrative content and no longer restricting ourselves to K-Dramas (of course we'll only still be striving for high quality dramas).

Streaming, variety... Maybe we'll get back to that someday but I've been doing this for five years straight years and I'm kind of sick of being on the sidelines just WATCHING. My passion has never been video or film, it's been ART.

I hope you like this schedule, it IS a little excessive, but know that our schedules going forward will be similar to this. More LPs, drama + anime, and then variety content. That's the my priority order.

I hope you all understand.

I want to be clear, I'll be reacting still on YouTube, I am just going to transition out of variety reactions/make them free on YouTube at my own leisure, and focus more on the music & film aspect of things on Patreon.

Form of Therapy.

I created this brand because MAKING ART was my form of therapy. At a certain point, the form of therapy brand belonged to others, my audience, because of what my videos did for them and I held pride in that.

But I haven't been a very good leader nor true to myself as an artist. Not self-serving AT ALL, and only serving others. I'm doing this as a means to make this channel my Form of Therapy again. During November after much needed quiet and reflection, I was seriously pondering ending my channel all month.

But what a chill kill.

Seriously that listening party saved my soul with how well it was produced. I took the plunge and I'm going to start diving deeper into music.

In exchange for a lighter reaction schedule on Patreon, I'm going to be filming my studio sessions with these producers, introduce you guys to my friends and peers and these people who have only encouraged me to go for my dreams.

My reactions will be more about music & film going forward. Sorry to disappoint anyone who may be disappointed, but again, those reactions will be free on YouTube :)

Sorry that it took me so many years to finally take this step. I've been wrestling with this for six months; ever since I returned from Korea. SUGA's ROAD TO D-DAY documentary REALLY started sending me over the hill and so the past two months in particular have been especially difficult for me. Quitting all my vices, doing therapy, and getting back to "myself" has been forcing me to admit to myself my truth.

I want to create the next HYBE but I didn't know where to start but it starts with taking this risk. I am adamant to be the first ever filmmaker/music producer/ceo. 

I love you guys. I would have never had the courage to dare to ask these great producers if they would be willing to teach me. But it's been my dream to make music since I was four years old and even down to editing, shooting, writing, directing--it all brought me to this moment: the vision for what the next generation of K-Pop could be.

Thank you, I hope you consider continuing to support me on this journey. With that in mind, enjoy this month's reactions!

I’ll be making a video soon addressing any follow up questions that arise and diving deeper into what’s going on for these next few weeks.

IT’S GONNA BE LIT THIS MONTH (I forgot to add SUGA’s DDAY concert, I’m gonna try to fit that in!)

PS. I also forgot to add LeeMujin Wendy. That’s coming!