I'm fine, thank you and you? (Patreon)

Hello everyone,

After two weeks from unplugging I am back.

I'll be honest and say I definitely did not get all the rest I needed, after all I've kind of been running for 4 years, two weeks isn't exactly going to fix all that, but it was enough for now.

Taking a break from filming helped with my physical exhaustion and I've had room in my mental space to prepare for the next coming months.

Summer's going to be very busy for me, and I'm starting my work routine today and getting back to updating y'all on the regular.

I hope you've all been well. I have felt guilty taking a break, not providing videos to entertain and help others get through their daily lives. But I've also been working hard to balance that guilt. Letting it go just enough so I don't spiral and become anxious/depressed but holding onto enough of it so that I carry myself and plan thoughtfully with responsibility to you all.

There's been quite a lot of new content dropping and I'm starting to make a list of things on my own. I'll also be reaching out in a post later today rallying for suggestions/requests for the next coming months.

The June schedule will be out May 31. As I mentioned before, we'll be doing a one-off healing content month but we'll also be adding in some non-healing content that 1. I really really want to watch 2. I don't want to make y'all wait any longer! (ie. SVT on NO PREPARE, Suchwita, etc.)

Just as a reminder/FYI if you're new: I will not be coming back with a full schedule until July. I will be spending June reuploading our old content and organizing all that stuff, and setting up routines so that all future videos/content is organized.

I'm sorry for making some of you worry about me.

Going to Korea for the first time after 3.5 years and being in America for nearly a month now, I feel as though I was reminded of who I used to be before the Pandemic.

I used to have dreams. I used to have ambitions.

Before I was just a reckless 27 year old just figuring shit out but now I'm a 31 year old adult. It's a difficult adjustment but I'm trying harder to not be so irresponsible and start planning my life months and years in advance.

I'm slowly gearing up to get into my "writing phase". I haven't written a god damn screenplay since before COVID! (I wrote 60% of one during COVID but stopped)

I'm keeping up a new routine/discipline where I watch a movie a day! I wake up at 5 in the morning, go for a walk and catch the morning light, get ready and dressed and then watch a film on my own in my room. It's something I used to do all the time and stopped in the beginning of COVID. I watched a film I've been wanting to see for a long time 'Chungking Express' by Wong Kar-Wai. It made me feel weird. I feel weird. But I was certainly moved and am grateful for the film.

So it's been just a lot of me being in my own head and planning out all these tiny ass details. I've had my 3 year and 1 year plans figured out for a while now but now I've been planning all the small steps to get me to those bigger milestones, and today is the first day I'm implementing them.

So that's how I've been. I'm fine, thanks for asking.

How have you all been? How did you spend the past month? I've been curious for weeks! 

Looking forward to seeing you all in my videos soon.