I almost messed myself on accident yesterday (Patreon)

I really can’t believe I’m sharing this because in the moment I wanted to take it to my grave, I haven’t messed in years. I think the next time it happens will probably be this year. There’s a lot of encouragement to do it from daddy which makes me really blushy and I still say maybe. like I have to ask to have my tapes undone to use to the toilet for that when we’re together and  get told it’s okay to just use my diaper. But messing still embarrasses me to the point of I’d probably cry a little for feeling so embarrassed

okay sorry for the ramble anyways.. yesterday I had to go but it came on suddenly and I ran to the potty. Started to aggressively take off my tapes and suddenly regretted having four of them. By the time I go to the last I noticed another tape had reattached and I almost gave up right then because I felt myself lose control and thought it had gotten into the diaper.. . i quickly sat down to finish and was almost too scared to check because I was expecting to see a gross little spot of shame in that diaper where I truly couldn’t hold it and luckily and miraculously no spot. I really think I was seconds away from a full blown and very messy accident. like ten extra seconds and I would’ve had a full diaper that I think I would’ve almost had to have stayed in until I was done.. right next to the potty 😭 okay let’s keep this a secret between us because this is still really embarrassing to admit