Do I binge and purge with Ab/Dl (Patreon)

I think after some time in the community we all either experience or hear about binging and purging. This classic idea of getting rid of every trace of your kink and stepping away only to come back and over indulge is the narrative Ive always heard but after this weeks "small" purchases I realized maybe it's different for everyone and I fall more into the catergory of binging when I feel shame or doubts about my relatoinship with kink still kind of embarrassed to admit this habit but Im curious how others feel and wanted to be honest Im not always 100% confident in this