Streams of Consciousness... (Patreon)

It's been a weird month for creativity and brainstorming.

I've spent this month trying to brainstorm, how I want to go forward. What I want to do. I've been puttering around with scripts, with doodle pages, concept art, writing stream after stream of consciousness rambling. Trying to put my finger on the direction I want to go next. What I want to do. What I need to do.

It's hard, it's a little scary. My perfectionism wants me to "do it right" but what does that even mean? My goals are contradictory- I want to keep thriving and expanding in the online world, while also returning to my community roots and making something my tribe can be proud of. I'm stubbornly independent, while also fiercely reliant on outside validation. I undermine what I've accomplished, forgetting that I've made really fun stuff over the past ten years.

So needless to say. I was going in circles.

I've been working more on deciding what I'm going to do next. More concretely, in terms of dividing my time and labour to make stuff. And that involves this patreon. I think, I'm going to post more regularly here again. I had this, grand idea, of trying to shift my patreon entirely towards producing a game or a comic. But I'm not ready for that. So I think I'll simply ease back into posting stuff here regularly, as I keep looking and practicing for my next idea.

For now- that means that I'll try to post once a week, the commissions and sketches I've been doing. And this will probably stay a tip jar thing. For everyone.

And I'll be brainstorming what to do next. Possibly introducing a higher tier that will see the *paid* content on patreon instead of waiting for a public release. Maybe I'll experiment with sketch sequel voting or upgrades again. Maybe just a tier for a commission discount, I don't know.

And in terms of projects. Of what I want to make next. I'm trying to think of how I get attached to characters. What I'm good at. What gets me excited. If how characters fall in love? Or how they hate each other? If they need to be bombastic world shakers, or simply intimate slice of life individuals.

Sorry this post is so rambly. I've been feeling very rambly the past month. And I'm still not closer to an answer. But as my supporters, I think you should know. And see some of the doodles I've been doing. Thank's yall!