Me + Screens (Patreon)

Hey there ho there fellers! I just wanted to type a bit of an honest reflection here about my screen addiction (ironically... I am writing this on a screen LOL). On Monday, I woke up, immediately went to do computer work, facetimed my mom for a few hours, wasted my afternoon on social media, did emails & wedding work on my laptop, streamed myself playing Animal Crossing from 6-9 PST, then watched TV right after until 1 AM. When I went to bed, my head hurt & I felt really shitty. I then realized... Oh... I was literally on screens since I woke up!!! I felt disgusting, ashamed, & mad. Mad that I abandoned my morning coffee & a book routine. Mad that I wasted so much time scrolling IG when I could've been doing ANYTHING else. Mad that I didn't even notice when it was happening because I was completely sucked into the screen void LOL. I texted Finley before bed right then so he'd wake up to it (he was already asleep) & told him to call me out if he saw me on my phone the next day. I specifically wanted to be away from social media & time wasting platforms. All day yesterday, I read, baked bread, made my staples like vegan parm & vegetable broth, made some delicious chilli from scratch, took my sister's wedding planning call on my computer instead of my phone so I wouldn't allow myself any scrolling afterwards, & went to my zumba class! I had a GREAT night of sleep & woke up feeling ready to take on the rest of the week with a different perspective on social media specifically. Because in reality, my work is online. I can use it to my work advantage sharing my streams, videos, life moments, etc. but I don't need to MAKE IT my life if that makes sense. I returned to IG today because I had to send inspo screenshots to my wedding photographer & so I shared some thoughts on my story there, but just wanted to go into depth here for my patreon peeps! I feel like I never realize how addicted I am to screens until I feel horrible, so I just want to take a much more strategic approach to my use of it from here on out! I'll obviously still be doing work online, just in a more mindful way. Glad to get that off my chest brothers! I love you! Have a wonderful week.