Thoughts on Current Patron Pick Polls (Patreon)

Hey there, Oxdarock here!

Man, I think the phrase, "You can't make everyone happy," is one of most factual statements of all time. Regarding the current state of Patron Pick Polls... I'm unhappy with them (again) and will be changing them (again) from here on. 

I'm not sure if it's due to me being busy and having my mind on other things, but I've hit the point again where Patron Picks feel like a chore again. Part of it is because the ideas I'm interested in don't make it that far (which I'm sure a lot of people can relate to) and another is because I'd decided to detach myself emotionally from the polls ever since the one in January left me with mental fatigue.  Looking over the sixteen pictures I've done for Patron Pick voting polls at the time of writing this, even though they all came out nicely, I can only look back at six of them with fondness. What's more, there are some ideas that make it to the final round that I actively don't want to bother with, which is a major red flag, which still managed to happen last month despite how restrictive I've made the polls.

I thought the reason I feel unhappy is because I'm inherently not interested in doing requests, but that's not entirely true, since there are 42 ideas that were sent to me over the year that I actually think are decent. However, that's 42 out of 186. Some have proportions that are too big while others had details I didn't care for. There were those that featured popular characters that I don't feel attached to or have burnout towards (Interesting that  people would suggest Monster Musume ideas in the midst of me drawing a ten-page Suu sequence...) and the most common one tended to be ideas that have details surrounding the scenario of the picture, many of which would feel silly or forced to me. There are exceptions that I vibed with, but a lot of these ideas caused me to roll my eyes.

So why did I accept these ideas anyway? Well, I didn't really dislike them and they aren't beyond what I'm comfortable drawing. However, they don't induce a sense of excitement either, which is a problem. I will accept some responsibility on this matter since I've made it clear that if it's not Symphogear related, my excitement of an idea sent my way is a toss-up, but I digress. Honestly, I feel like I'm not degenerate enough. Sure, causal pictures that marvel at the character's enhanced figure are nice, but I should really go out of my way to make them lewd, make them boner-inducing. I'm normally not crazy about drawing penetration, but if a character has a big dick, I should go out of my way to have them ram it in something! If a character becomes a thick mommy, I should have them wrap themselves around a boy-toy, overwhelm them with their size! Is it more work, yes, it is, but damn it, if there's one thing worth suffering for, it's getting a hard-on to thicc anime women!!!

Ahem, anyway, so yeah. I've taken some time to think about how I'd like to change Patron Picks moving on from here so that I look forward to them. First and foremost, I should definitely put in more effort to be a degenerate motherfucker when I have the opportunity. As for how I'll go about it...

You'll have to read it in the next post! That's all for now!